i have like ONE main goal (this is a long one)

uh basically i wanna draw more contentious art,, im always embarrassed talking about it because its taboo :D THE THING IS i already made a thread about this and.. people were very supportive!! but i wasn't that specific in what taboo stuff i wanna draw !! i mostly said noncon and uh . i think people are generally okay with that BUT WHAT ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE IDDKKKKK so full disclosure, like .. so uhhhhh uuuuuhhhmmmm okay;fuck you RRRAAAAGGHH whys it so hard to say . i keep thinking of ways to say it but i just end up stalling and adding prior context to “lessen the blow” uh

I WANT TO DRAW REALLY FUCKED UP SHIT like, noncon is one of them, right, but i ALSO want to draw stuff like ageplay/cubs and maybe incest or other fucked up stuff?? idk . i only realized i really wanted to draw stuff like this until after i started getting suggestions for my sona via retrospring and SOME OF THEM kinda triggered something inside me like one of them said “i wanna molest her while she's sleeping~ >:3” and another said my sona lying down with “a pacifier and open diaper while nsfw shenanigans are going on” and i was like aaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA i wanna draw these so bad .i adore these types of suggestions

anyway the only reason why i havent drawn stuff like that yet is because 1, i have wips i SHOULD do before starting new projects, 2, because im afraid people will hate me for it, and 3, idk where to put that art because every art mutual i know who draws cubs gets suspended sooner or later so i think i should just put that stuff on baraag or something (i already have a baraag account) so i can just have a full uncensored gallery there. i was also considering bluesky or itaku but idk to what extent they allow that stuff