ty for your answer it feels good to read someone say that lol 😭 mom doesn't know that's why she isn't alarmed. they've been divorced for a long while and don't talk anymore. ANYWAY i'll try my best to implement my no contact policy because i am so done. fun fact back when i was like 12 i asked for his phone to look for info about a pokemon game and the first thing that came up when i typed "po-" in the search bar was like "porn teen" something yay . like ik it's a popular search on porn websites but that coupled with the things he's said uhm 😐 really don't want to know what he might have involved himself in. he's a walking red flags for many reasons (won't get into it but for example he kept repeating to me i was going to die when i went vegan at 13. everytime we saw each other he would only talk to me about all those people he knew that died from being vegan. still vegan still alive. also i know for a fact he dgaf whether i live or not so that really was just about control to him) but i always felt pressurized to be compliant