actually i use zázhong/杂种 on a lot of my accounts, not just patreon! it has a layered meaning (especially with how i tie it back to myself), directly translating to hybrid (usually with context for canines - think "mutt" or "mongrel") but it can be used as a curse (bastard, bitch). 狗杂种 is also used ("dog bastard"). just any variation of "dog" is used as an insult in chinese, generally speaking. however /i/ use it for a multitude of reasons but mainly because of my alterhuman identity - i don't really like the world alterhuman though so i'd prefer if i wasn't called it - and my anglo-irish ancestry. but that's a really long story and a lot of explanation/world history so the short version is i like the word and tie it back to my identity in a really weird way.

honestly this is just a term i coined(?) because it's my way of describing my own experience!
it's really complicated for me, im not quite sure what exactly it is i experience but it's likely tied to several illnesses of mine; to make a VERY long story short, they're in no way "individual" enough to be their own alters - i have osdd-1b - but still separate enough to be identified as "someone"(???) else. i understand this probably is really vague and confusing, but i don't understand my own experience well enough myself. just because im diagnosed with these disorders doesn't make me an expert. similarly enough, i have a record in my life of "splitting" different abusers up into identifiable "fragments". the best example i can give was one of my abusive exes who i split up into different perceived parts/names that represented the "goods", the "bads", and the in betweens. some parts were more distinct than others. it allowed me to shift blame or "identify who was mad at me". it was a subconscious thing and took me an extremely long time to realise it was not normal.
most likely it is a combination of trauma responses and such from a bunch of different disorders. i split myself up as well because of my identity diffusion in bpd and, again, the sense that it is almost someone else thinking and doing these things, which could be from both bpd and osdd. i wish i could give a more distinct/clear answer, sorry!!

actually i use zázhong/杂种 on a lot of my accounts, not just patreon! it has a layered meaning (especially with how i tie it back to myself), directly translating to hybrid (usually with context for canines - think "mutt" or "mongrel") but it can be used as a curse (bastard, bitch). 狗杂种 is also used ("dog bastard"). just any variation of "dog" is used as an insult in chinese, generally speaking. however /i/ use it for a multitude of reasons but mainly because of my alterhuman identity - i don't really like the world alterhuman though so i'd prefer if i wasn't called it - and my anglo-irish ancestry. but that's a really long story and a lot of explanation/world history so the short version is i like the word and tie it back to my identity in a really weird way.