so, ive always felt that i am like, miserably ugly. ever since i was a small child, from the first moment i could see my face (i was born with poor eyesight and couldnt see it well until i was in first grade and got glasses.) but this seems to be far from the truth and like a genuine dysmorphic psychosis. the way my face looks in the mirror to me is nothing like how other people percieve. its really common for people to tell me im pretty or even beautiful. i think other people like my face and body. but i cannot internalize this whatsoever and i feel deeply uncomfortable and unhappy in my body and always have. this is so personal it almost feels weird to admit or might sound like a humblebrag that ppl said im pretty but i think its just testament to how horrible my personality is that people couldnt believe for example i wasnt in a relationship based on my appearance , like my personality really is so atrocious that it wouldnt matterhow i actually appeared to others lol