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anonymous robo · 1d
I missed the eva stream bcause i was at my graduation party im sorry rury orz thankz for all the art you made throughout these years sorry if i mess up the text im a bit drunk
anonymous robo · 3d
why firefox
anonymous robo · 6d
Do anything fun lately and see something interesting in japan? sorry about all the prying questions I hope those didn't make you feel worse
anonymous robo · 6d
what do u dislike about shonen? have there ever been any like exceptions to the rule where something about a shonen made it likable for u?
I dont hate shonens, i just resent how shonen fans say stuff like moeshit, so i use shonenshit bc it has at least as many flaws as a genre. and ive liked shonens occassionally... FMA is a shonen for example. but i tend to not like them because i dont care about boys and yaoi that much on its own, im not really a shotacon (only when i love him will i love him for being a shota) and stories revolving around training and fighting are like really boring to me. so like, hanako-kun was also an exception to this because its called a shonen and serialized in a shonen publication, but it has plenty of female characters, and by genre, is more of a shoujo since it has a focus on romance and relationships. not to mention its bug eyed art style. going back to fma, i fell off in the latter half of the story bc the focus of the story shifted from personal to the protagonists to being more of a global concern. my issue with stories that do this (also common in capeshit) is that it makes the characters chemistry and relationships and personal needs/goals completely irrelevant- now we all have the same shared goal thats a matter of life and death, so we have to tolerate each other even if we hate each other, and as soon as that threats over well never speak to each other again. just, kind of boring. an adventure should be more interesting than this. made in abyss isnt shonen but it is adventure and manages to be interesting bc it never loses its personal/intimate character focus. even big battles and fight scenes are the emotionally loaded culmination of character development. arakawa who wrote fma also mentioned women were expected to write emotions better than convoluted plotlines, which is considered more of a male strength in authors and she wanted to contradict this. which is a shame, bc lore and plot should absolutely come second to character imo, i dont really give a fuck what men think
anonymous robo · 9d
I used to feel similarly. But lately I’m embracing being an asshole. :P People didn’t deserve me being nice to them. And they still treat me terribly despite that I never did anything to them. I think you should let yourself feel angry, spiteful, feelings. It might be hard bc you were raised to think your feelings weren’t important, but the way you feel matters. I’m still miserable, but letting hate fester inside me feels better somehow. I guess I got tired of being the bigger person and it feels good to stop trying.
i feel that and i respect your choice. i just dont have feelings like that. im always sort of at a neutral baseline veering on depressive and sometimes dip into, despair, you know, the sickness unto death. but, genuinely i dont feel any rage towards people and treating them poorly is impossible bc i do not have the confidence and it just stresses me out
anonymous robo · 9d
Have you ever have people they considered you a friend, but you do not feel the same way about them? Sometimes I appreciated the gesture, but I feel guilty that I just cannot feel the same way about them
usually if someone considers me a friend im kinda releived bc i wouldnt have assumed we were friends bc i dont assume ppl actually like me and their confirmation makes me feel like ok. thats good. cus i guess i mean friendship doesnt imply any commitment or intensity or anything. u can be casual friends even if you never talk one on one
anonymous robo · 10d
I don't meant to pry but I'm curious what's your issue with your personality?your are genuinely one of the most softest understanding people I know
i think the main problem is my avoidance, like the fact its genuinely almost impossible to get close to me, and even if you do, i still wont really trust you. but its hard to be objective about this from the inside. all i have is the consequences to try and think back from, which si that, i dont form relationships the way most people seem to, and i feel incredibly distant from the world and everything in it most of the time
anonymous robo · 10d
any physical activity that you are particularly fond of? like, dancing, taking walks, pacing around, swimming,
anonymous robo · 10d
if we're saying what your art made us feel!!
I found your work years ago while you were still actively making FMA art. Your rendition of edal really spoke to me as someone who didn't really have much awareness of the ship before. It spoke to me not rly out of interest in the ship, but more because I related to your depiction of it, and how to expressed the feelings between the characters, their intimacy through their childhood. It inspired me to not be afraid to explore such things in my art as well, but I have still not been as brave as you. Maybe one day!
yeah, its somthing about that ship, that was one of the only times i really felt, oh, this is unconditional love. bc its the compatibility and contrast of their personalities and their shared experiences that made them this way. almost like they melted together into one person. completely a fantasy love the likes of which doesnt and couldnt exist irl, or at least, not within me. it came to me at a time i had never experienced love or genuine closeness with another person. and i just, put all of my hope and despair over that into the art. this impossible thing. having a friend since you were born. being born with someone who you happened to get along with on. a personal level. the element of luck. the element of fortune despite any sorrow. there was always something stronger than despair, love. its not like that in life. there also isnt any such love within me. the hope and despair just kind of leaks out. like when a balloon is untied and it sputters helium for a while before whistling to a stop and theres nothing. im kind of like an empty balloon. but if you have feelings like this, i dont think it takes bravery. im a cowardly person, and i always have been. i think it takes something much more like desperation and pain
anonymous robo · 14d
hi rury!! since the retrospring website is shutting down preeetty soon have u heard about the website neospring? figured u may wanna look into it for future asks becauze i love sending rury chan asks
yeah thanks for your interest here you go https://neospring.org/@rury
anonymous robo · 14d
Re: what your art has made feel us
I found your art when you were called dokudrinker and quite frankly I found you in a dark period of my life, not that it's any better mind you, but I was WAY crazier back then. You were mutuals with Homie/Homunculus100 so naturally I was attracted to what I saw, "This is really pretty, it's nice" I thought, not really a deep connection you know; it stayed like that for a while, but then I saw all your Asushin art.
I think the first one I saw was the housewife Shinji, it was real cute, I kind of connected with it in the sense that that's what I wanted my role of a relationship to be at the time. I don't quite remember which one I saw next but each subsequent one I saw got to me deeper and deeper because Asushin reminded me of me and my ex and how I craved that relationship back, which now I realize was not the greatest thing for me but ahh it was so nice to see that kind of relationship visually, to be represented sort of, wanting someone who seemingly hates you
I don't know quite how to express myself deeply but ever since I've always liked your art, as basic as that sounds.
On a shorter note, I also like your Homudoka drawings, they portray a sort of yearning I always feel. You make a lonely person feel less lonely.
English is not my first language, I'm proud to say I speak it quite fluently, but sharing these kind of thoughts is difficult for me, even in my own language, so I just want to let you know even if we (your fans) don't say much I think I speak for all of us that what you make really helps us spiritually I think. At least that's what I feel lol
i wanna say thanks so much for this message it was really cool to read. like specifically helping others spiritually wow i never would have given myself that accolade, from my own perspective im just like, a person who draws some mid-tier pornography once in a while and even that is getting really really difficult for me to do ... so.. you also werent the firs tto say something about my art helped you with feelings about a relationship you had, which is cool.... so thanks a lot for this mesage...
anonymous robo · 12d
i wish i had a family too rury... m-maybe we could... =>_<=
anonymous robo · 12d
what's your perception of your appearance? would you say you are cute? sexy?
so, ive always felt that i am like, miserably ugly. ever since i was a small child, from the first moment i could see my face (i was born with poor eyesight and couldnt see it well until i was in first grade and got glasses.) but this seems to be far from the truth and like a genuine dysmorphic psychosis. the way my face looks in the mirror to me is nothing like how other people percieve. its really common for people to tell me im pretty or even beautiful. i think other people like my face and body. but i cannot internalize this whatsoever and i feel deeply uncomfortable and unhappy in my body and always have. this is so personal it almost feels weird to admit or might sound like a humblebrag that ppl said im pretty but i think its just testament to how horrible my personality is that people couldnt believe for example i wasnt in a relationship based on my appearance , like my personality really is so atrocious that it wouldnt matterhow i actually appeared to others lol