dont be sorry haha. i think in general i prefer it violent, even if grooming is also involved. which isnt to say that there needs to be a big struggle or explicit threat. sometimes the manipulation just feels that violent. in general, im not into it when theres an established relationship as much. but theres always exceptions to the rule, right? so it depends on the ship and the context and everything.. but for example a relationship that feels like grooming/manipulative, and the noncon is just baked into that relationship, thats not as fun for me as when the rape is sort of a one-off. like trust was broken at the moment of it, how do i put it? whether the victim can resist or not, they arent really making a choice to stay. idk if this is making any sense. i guess long story short is that i like it more the more the victim suffers

yeah people in general seem to make a special exception for rape/sexual violence in general in a way that i honestly truly believe is pushing us backwards and confining peoples experiences to censorship which i think is really inexcusable. we need to be able to joke about these things. jokes are an important way we can feel less alone . the more isolating and taboo the subject matter, the better it lends itself to a good joke, honestly. the people who are the MOST vocally uncomfortable tend to be those who never experienced anything like that, and i dont really care about them so... thank YOU for reading ..and responding!! i hope u have a great day

she was kinda cool in rebellion story but annoying in the original story imo. ill elaborate. hes basically really entitled and has a punitive, reductive, cops mentality about things. i dont like how she spoke to kyoko, her naive and idealistic view of the world is stupid, even for someone her age, shes basically just really sheltered from actual suffering and was hoisted by her own petard so to speak. its unfortunate that kyoko was dragged into all that and made to feel bad about herself by someone who never had to work or struggle for anything in her life.
however, sayaka is madokas best friend before homura. apparently, sayaka and madoka met when sayaka defended her from bullies. so she has this kind of knightly attitude that is also present in her character design. it's also because of this that homura must destroy sayaka and sayaka is most likely to get in homura's way. afterall, homura was amoral from the get go, from before her first loop she had already given up on humanity. so its really funny whenever sayaka and homura interact bc their value systems are as completely different as they can possibly get. so i like her in the sense that its funny for homura to have to deal with her

it absolutely is really difficult to get through high school, especially if youre an indoors type imo.. never again in your life will you be trapped in a box with 40+ people you have nothing in common with other than age and be forced to get along with them, while learning/working on assignments 8+ hours a day. its a huge load of work. but i think graphic design is a really diverse and lucrative field to enter so its a good choice for your degree. yeah, it is scary to enter the job market. and i worked many miserable service jobs for a long time... but no matter what you do, you can use it as an oppertunity to improve yourself as long as you have solid emotional support coming from somewhere. at least, that is my experience. and thank YOU so much!! i wish you the best of luck with your future. its normal to be nervous!