anonymous robo · 10d
I used to feel similarly. But lately I’m embracing being an asshole. :P People didn’t deserve me being nice to them. And they still treat me terribly despite that I never did anything to them. I think you should let yourself feel angry, spiteful, feelings. It might be hard bc you were raised to think your feelings weren’t important, but the way you feel matters. I’m still miserable, but letting hate fester inside me feels better somehow. I guess I got tired of being the bigger person and it feels good to stop trying.
i feel that and i respect your choice. i just dont have feelings like that. im always sort of at a neutral baseline veering on depressive and sometimes dip into, despair, you know, the sickness unto death. but, genuinely i dont feel any rage towards people and treating them poorly is impossible bc i do not have the confidence and it just stresses me out
