nonnie ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ · 1mo
I think that Anon was off in their approach, but if you want feedback for why you can seem offputting/intimidating you can seem a bit clique-y, like no one is worth your follow/interaction, and you don't really interact with people outside of like 2 to show support for things, I feel like you definitely exclude certain people despite having shared interests for some strange reason, or it seems you don't like their content because it's objectively better, etc. Just a clique-y kind of feeling from an outside perspective
i do appreciate the outside perspective honestly!! my biggest deficit (and im VERY aware of it) is how i portray myself to other people and registering tone and how i come across, and it's something ive struggled with for years, and continue to even with having worked with a therapist on this.
i do want to clarify some things though !! there are two people i interact with more than others and those are literally my best friends. i don't always follow back because i like to curate my tl to what i want to see especially with how broken twt has become where you can even see posts by people who have you blocked?? which is still wild to me. i also go to work at 430 am est almost every day !! so there are a lot of things i miss, and i honestly am too exhausted a good portion of the time to go through every mutual's posts and see what i missed -- usually it comes back up later and if its something that catches my interest i comment on it. ive been in a huge reading slump for literal months and its awful bc theres so many things i want to read but when i open up my tabs to read them, i just cant find my focus to really digest the words everyone has worked hard on creating.
i also definitely dont think my own content is better than anyones!!! honestly, i generally think my content is really boring so its always a surprise to me when anyone likes it haha. but when it comes to following people, if theyre people i interact with frequently and follows me, i generally tend to follow back. i cant follow back all 700+ people who follow me, that's a little overwhelming and i have a very small brain, and spend more time on discord than i do on twitter, or playing lads/genshin/infinity nikki/hsr/wuwa/ffxiv (i play too many games for the time i have), or even just writing.
nothing i do is ever intentionally meant to make anyone feel bad, truthfully! im just a girl with a very small attention span and sometimes, especially after a long week, dont have the spoons to interact with all the people i want to. and i know that i don't really owe anyone an explanation for why im the way i am, but i like to be transparent when it's nothing too deeply personal.
