sorry to use your retro for this again, but i hope my thinkpiece yesterday didn't give off the notion that I'm just badmouthing all top chnners or any ships at all (youknowwhichship is still top 3 in my chn ships, i just don't read the fics anymore), it should be quite easily comprehensible that I'm just calling out people in general who refuse to see and like him for who he is because it doesn't turn them on or appeal to their sexual...vision (?) of him, so they just stick to his physicality and his stage aura, run with it to build a radically different personality for him, call it a day and dry heave (on their public socmed account too btw) when he does cute stuff or shares his vulnerability or does his little nerdy shenanigans or whatever. i probably wouldn't have taken it seriously months back, but he's clearly withdrawn the very little pieces of himself he used to share now after chan's room was stopped and has publicly shown insecurity in being himself which is fucking horrible to watch as a someone who has ult-ed him for years lol im just tired atp