Littlespace is hard for me to navigate. Sometimes its fine and fun, I like playing with my cg and my fiancé and it feels like I’m more free and able to just relax, slip into a state of mind where I don’t have to worry about a lot of things. On the flipside though because of my own personal traumatic childhood it can be reeally really difficult to be in that mindset because tiny little things can trigger a sudden mood swing. Its a healing thing for me personally because I want to try and slowly replace the impure memories I have with good ones with my cg and fiancé but its definitely not just all good times in my experience. That isn’t to say I don’t enjoy being in littlespace though, I do love it very much, and I’m so grateful for the opportunity to explore it with people who are kind and gentle and patient with me. Sorry if this seems rambly and disjointed, its still new to me to be able to talk about this sort of thing.

it’s hard for me to fully regress yet but I can usually tell when I’m getting there because things just come out easier and I don’t filter myself like I usually do. I can just do things and babble and whatnot.