hi anon, i dont believe i need to share all my personal struggles especially with both my physical health and mental health to prove i stepped down for those reasons. i don’t deny that i was indeed incapable and the other mods had to step in to save the project because that was indeed what happened, and i feel very grateful and indebted to them for doing so. if that wasn’t the case, why would i step down? i care deeply about the travel zine still, and i feel guilty and sad i couldn’t stay present enough to continue overseeing it.

i joke that i don’t have a filter online a lot and overshare, but the persona i share with the public internet is very curated from my true self. i also never share all the more worrisome and ugly details with even friends when i do reach out for help. i dont feel at all comfortable sharing any part of that month long disappearance on here.

honestly even now being online and trying to force myself to be normal is a work in progress, but im desperate to somehow force myself into feeling normal again. maybe this will finally have me productive and pull myself together, or maybe it won’t. i don’t know.

i do know i’ve disappointed you, and everyone involved in the zine. i’m disappointed in myself too. sorry. please support the zine when it releases.