buzzing lil bee · 21d
I'm not big on 'new years resolutions' but one of the resolutions I made was because of you. I think you're one of the kindest people around here and I've had the pleasure of interacting with you a few times. But I always felt awkward and kept myself at a distance and I think I missed my shot at being your friend which sucks haha. Because I see how kind you are and how close you are with some of the other people around here which both warms my heart but also reminds me that the only one stopping me from having that sort of connection with the incredible people I know is only myself. It's a recurring thing but I saw it so clearly with you throughout this year I guess. So my resolution is to not be so guarded when I want to be close with someone I like. I don't know why I'm telling you this haha I hope it makes you feel good that your kindness is inspiring others I guess. Happy New Year loveliest stray bee💕
hello my dear anon 💕 thank you for coming to my inbox and letting me know how you feel, i really appreciate that!! you're very kind 😭
i'm grateful to hear i have inspired you to set such a noble goal for this year, and i want you to know that i'm cheering you on, even if i don't know who you are!! i think seeking connections with other people and being able to be open and vulnerable with them (in whatever way is comfortable for you) is SUCH an important part of life, even though it can be scary to start out with. i find being vulnerable scary too, but i also realized a long time ago that if i can't be vulnerable and hopeful and excited, i simply become deeply unhappy! so now i often just actively try to be vulnerable and positive despite my fear, and as a result all the people who have stuck around seem to really like that about me, and have less trouble sharing personal things with me as well. so your community will hopefully kind of build itself once you start showing who you are and what you like to see :) and giving kindness often gets kindness in return 💕
also i'm sorry to hear you've been feeling awkward when we interacted! but i personally don't really believe in "missing shots" i think... becoming friends is something that can take a long time, after all! plenty of my irl friends were people that had been in and out of my life for years before we started actively becoming friends, we simply needed a catalyst. so there's no time limit on these sorts of things, the only limits are whether or not you're a match with each other, and if you're both willing and able to put in the work. now, i don't know who you are, so i can't make any promises about becoming friends of course! but please at least don't feel anxious around me bc you feel like you missed your window, there is really no need :)
i really hope you find these connections and friendships you seek, and i hope you know that i always appreciate the people i talk to and share moments with, even if they're just passing through in my life!! have a very happy 2025 please 💕
