hello, bebi ko. it's okay! tbh, idk how i am coping or even if i am coping. i understand yung sa meds, cuz i stopped it too. i didn't like the side effects talaga. :( it never really got better for me? pero! i hold on to the good days. kahit na mahaba yung bad days, i hold on to the rare good ones. i talk to friends who understand. i try to be open about it kahit na im ashamed because despite it all, i want to hold on to life.

bebi i really suggest talking abt it & making sure you're surrounded by a loving, healthy & supportive environment. i know it's v difficult, pero that is why i am picky sa mga people around me. we build our own safe space, bc we need it to stay alive & sane.

and im emphasizing yung environment because i know na our demons would tell us na we're unloved, unimportant, na we're better off gone. we need reminders that those aren't true. we need people who love us that will ground us and remind us that we are not actually alone.

if you ever need anyone, my dms are open okay? and also, if you feel like you're a danger to yourself, pls pls tell someone :(

im not a health professional and im just speaking from experience, but i hope it helps even a little bit.

idk you bebi, but i love you a lot. thank you for reaching out. you're doing well for yourself 🥺💞