anonymous · 7mo
Hellooooo i just finished reading ruin + devastation and ooooh my god this shit is amazing. I won’t lie i didn’t have super high hopes going in because ive only ever read your other doujin elyusium and while i thought it was good, i didn’t feel like the storyline went too in depth and it felt basic, but nonetheless enjoyed. i was super taken aback by your improved story telling and genuinely felt myself getting drawn in (very drawn in as im typing this l-lol), i love the conflict you included (the stuff going on with dev + luci + (eventually xavi)) and how luci grew up to have physical consequences bc of incest and fought back against its parents instead of going along with them forever. you’re incredibly talented at creating atmosphere and tension; I found myself staring at pages over and over again just to admire the art and coloring and effects you use. this is all very very very inspirational, i absolutely loved it, and I’m definitely looking forward to next time this series has a new doujin addition (if it ever does, no pressure, still love them the same), ur the best
desperately clutching your hand in mine you get it. you Understand.
i'm always grateful when people enjoy any of my works, but elysium was my first foray into original storytelling. i didn't have much confidence when writing it, and i still had a lot of baggage around writing original works at all. it's a much simpler and highly straightforward story--which is why i've never been compelled to revisit or expand upon it. it's self-contained, and i also feel like my later works are much more in line with the kinds of stories i want to tell in the first place.
i'm drawn to emotional complexity, to haunting ambiguity. making goofy little porn comics is fun, too, but i don't feel like it's what my heart always really yearns for.
thank you for writing in... to be completely honest, i'm fairly sensitive to how i'm perceived. it's why i've been dialing back existing very much on my main accounts--i never anticipated cultivating an audience of even this size. i've always sought to aggressively cater exclusively to myself. the fact that i've somehow impacted so many people in the process is touching, but occasionally stressful for me.
there have definitely been times where i've felt like things would simply be easier if i was "just" the loli guy, or the robots guy, or the rule 34 guy, or... the list goes on and on. at the end of the day, i'm a multifacted person with a variety of interests and preferences. i can't change that. and i can't change what people do or don't appreciate about my work--but i CAN make sure i'm still chasing my own bliss.
in doing so, maybe someday i'll touch someone else's heart enough to receive another message like this.
