theyutettes 🪻 answered firstly thank you for always welcoming me 🤧…

jajahehe · 2y

firstly thank you for always welcoming me 🤧

secondly sighs and looks at a distance that touching ym game things has my eye twitching every time i see it and the laughter from the other members doesn’t help

okay so i have made an entire doc of some of my favorite idol clothes since you were curious yeahhhhh (it’s crazy that it’s not all of it and it’s that long lmaoo 😭), i hope you like it ! https://docs.google.com/document/d/1l3ALwXsoOBCY6Y3tUUTkxVD2cTQb8c7LJIZZb4ZECJ8/edit?usp=sharing

plus two random ym https://twitter.com/yutactivities/status/1231471416194871296?s=21&t=KE6mEEV866WU773tA96nLw https://twitter.com/yutactivities/status/1266214575558537226?s=21&t=KE6mEEV866WU773tA96nLw

lastly i read your angst snippet and wow wow wow wowwwwww like how can i put my feelings into words. this might sound weird but that’s exactly how i imagine their angst/conflict in general to sound/look like, especially as things got more serious and they began battling with the balance (if that even exists) of doing/getting away with things for the camera while also not being too obvious while also treasuring the privacy (am i making sense), especially after what you mentioned in your previous answer of them initially using fanservice as an excuse to do things that would seem ?? in another context. personally i feel like it’s been hinted at (for example mark’s child’s diary video and yuta mentioning in the latin america portion of the tour that they raised his self-esteem) that they both have been deeply insecure in their own ways and this insecurity has shown up in like you mentioned as they were coming to terms with the feelings; that confidence you mentioned is key as well. for me one of the most beautiful things about them is that they’ve grown together in many ways and continue to grow (they’ve softened but hardened each other shells, weird way to put it?). i think they both feel pressure in their own ways and it can lead to not wanting to become a burden for each other. this is where one of the main yumarkisms reassurance comes to play ahhhh. i think the frustration with their overall situation (idol queer couple and insane schedules) can also lead to some like undirected blurting. idk if i’m the only one but i think that the one reason why the coming to terms with feelings was so difficult is because it’s like a combination of “he was only supposed to be my dongsaeng/hyung” with a combination of “he’ll never see me that way.” i wanted to once again compliment you on your writing because not only are there a lot of yumark writers but there’s not a lot of yumark writers who really get into it and into their (looked over by many) depth, i’ve noticed that in fics they’re often sexualized in an odd way. that snippet gave me shivers because the emotion in your words really deliver. looking forward even more to the longfic!!

[sorry this took so long ;-; ty for your patience]

omg your doc.....quite extensive, that's so cute that you've kept track of the clothes you like!!! i really should do the same lol. from the quick peek i took, i can see that you're a sweater lover 🥰 tysm for sharing with me <33

those pics....esp that work it one 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 good LORD he is beautiful

yumark head nuzzling 🥹🥹🥹 they gotta be careful doing it when their hair is fried bc they'll start a fire ahdsbdhgvbd (i hope mrk's hair gets to rest for a good while ;-; poor little guy)

ngl i forgot i even posted that snippet until i read this lmaoooo??? i'm so happy to hear that you like my portrayal and that my way of looking at them resonates with you :D
"they’ve softened but hardened each other shells" is the PERFECT way to put it wow. really had to stop and sit with that for a hot sec. while it would be a huge disservice to both yta and mrk to say that their personal growth can be credited to the other party, at the same time imo it's pretty undeniable the influence they had on one another. which....the more i think about it isn't necessarily a bad thing. like we all need someone to give us confidence and reassurance, otherwise it can be pretty discouraging to go through everything alone. and helping each other grow can be beautiful and healing for both parties so :') that's essentially what i'm trying to do with my fic. trying to dive more into the off-cam stuff, the moments that are quieter but fundamental to their relationship. and especially doing yta character study stuff bc he's just so fascinating to me. his relationship with loneliness itself is something i could tinhat and write so much about.

work on the longfic is going way slower than i'd like 😥 but i'm trying me best :') thank you as always for your kind words, they really do motivate me hehe <33

jajahehe · 2y

theyutettes 🪻 · 2y