today i realized that i dont have to use a language that oppresses and divides me and i can just call myself a xrafstar instead bc that covers everything, bc none of my issues can be easily unwound from the tangle of who i am and are in fact nebulously soaked through with The Ooze. i no longer have to submit to an inadequate self-description that wants to cut me to pieces and label me and in fact justifies the torture imprisonment and murder of so many like me, nor do i have to reaffirm an essential humanity that is nowhere to be found. and honestly i just fit the description in general bc i am also addicted to sugar sex and violence. insert "on all levels except physical" meme. my greatest dream is that in addition to making me hairy, smelly and sterile hrt will give me a beautiful set of sensitive antennae with which to smell and feel the wondrous world, and a set of wings would also be nice. but i can wait and settle for lesser erohazards in the meantime. this is the most free ive ever felt in my life. and it's all thanks to you :-]