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Nameless Grub · 3d
ADORE 18 foot leash: scout's honour. Might be my favourite thing from you. Would love to read more or buy physical copy in the future. Thanks for sharing!
thank you so much...leash is my baby <3333
a leash book...that would be something...imagined only as one can imagine the rebirth of atlantis or world peace. it seems too niche for a physical release, but we’ll see when i’m finished. the fujo/fudanshi immune system must be strengthened if they are to survive what is to come. i would like to compile it into a PDF at minimum, and i have some delicious extras already written.
thank you for believing in the dream... 🪰
Nameless Grub · 22h
i would love to hear you pronounce the word delicatessen.
Nameless Grub · 23h
how many answers are on the seriweak personality quiz?
Nameless Grub · 2d
all the love in the world for shapeshifters and shadows and masks <3
Nameless Grub · 4d
just asking to be sure I'm using the correct terms, but do you consider yourself "not transfem" or just "not a trans woman".. or something else, in case I got something wrong in there too? Apologies since you've had to reiterate gender stuff a lot already. Thanks!
Nameless Grub · 14d
the maximum softness capable of being exerted by all machinery is so deliciously painful. what if someone built you to be a gun and then hated you for it? what happens when you, the one not masked to amuse or comfort or put at ease, show through, and prove yourself right in such an awful way? vindictive, vindication. you know they hate you, but no one says it, and that's worse. the fake woman, the dangerous woman, the not-a-woman-at-all thing. you're so attuned, you can see what people are not saying. thank you.
Nameless Grub · 11d
is...is the implication that in trying to summon an angel, cancer pulled riparian
Nameless Grub · 8d
been thinking a lot about greenwich. i've been associating her a lot with lingua ignota's music, and may end up compiling a playlist, but mostly i'm wondering if there's anything you associate with her? any other art, including music?
shrikeNameless Grub · 6d
i got Blake as my personality test answer what am I supposed to do with this information
Nameless Grub · 9d
cte is insane to me because each time i finished a chapter i was like 'ok this is the end of the movie, i can stop looking' AND THEN THERE WAS MORE. very cinematic expereince. i love how it gave me temporary chills ptsd to distract from the cptsd, making me terrified of innocent and normal redlights... i'm only on part 4 i think (rubicon is incredibly hot cripple) but i wanted to let you know.
Nameless Grub · 9d
today i realized that i dont have to use a language that oppresses and divides me and i can just call myself a xrafstar instead bc that covers everything, bc none of my issues can be easily unwound from the tangle of who i am and are in fact nebulously soaked through with The Ooze. i no longer have to submit to an inadequate self-description that wants to cut me to pieces and label me and in fact justifies the torture imprisonment and murder of so many like me, nor do i have to reaffirm an essential humanity that is nowhere to be found. and honestly i just fit the description in general bc i am also addicted to sugar sex and violence. insert "on all levels except physical" meme. my greatest dream is that in addition to making me hairy, smelly and sterile hrt will give me a beautiful set of sensitive antennae with which to smell and feel the wondrous world, and a set of wings would also be nice. but i can wait and settle for lesser erohazards in the meantime. this is the most free ive ever felt in my life. and it's all thanks to you :-]
Nameless Grub · 7d
does cancer prize officially have any gi illnesses or is he just a general pukeshit fountain?
he has abdominal migraines. he has a host of fetal alcohol syndrome/congenital issues, some of which lead to nausea and indigestion. his nausea is physical and psychological. his gut-axis is deranged. you can imagine him as a die spun across timelines, each face of the die a different gastric issue or disease or parasite. he is a sacred vector. and he is also a pukeshit fountain.
Nameless Grub · 10d
can't tell u how much lazurwich means to me. thank u for throwing some juicy red meat to the followers of the character i relate to heavily x character i think is rly rly hot thread.
Nameless Grub · 9d
i've read three of your books physically now, and i've noticed that the print in all of them is kind of massive compared to most other books (well, books targeted at adults, i mean) that i've encountered. i really appreciate this, since i tend to get overwhelmed and lose my place when there's too much text on the page. is there a similar sort of thing at play in your use of large print? or is it just an artistic choice? or something else entirely?
Nameless Grub · 9d
Are you by any chance a fan of Chuck palahniuk? Your writing reminds me a little bit of his, stylistically, particularly his earlier books
when I was 14 I printed out Fight Club on a huge stack of printer paper and read it in my attic bedroom the first year of being fostered. I didn't know he was a fag because most people didn't talk about that stuff back then. I enjoyed his direct style and the way he didn't use quotation marks, and it's probably the biggest stylistic choice I've retained to this day. It varies from story to story (q-marks can help with complex convos, and Cupbearer uses playwriting format) but naked dialog feels real, dissociated, coming from inside the skull. Even stories where I mostly use quotation marks, will strip them when the scene calls for it.
I haven’t read him for a long time, but yeah, it had an impact on me <3