apologies in advance for infodumping about myself a little bit in your inbox, but i find it necessary to properly express my thanks. i've had a severe fear of vomit and vomiting for almost 20 years at this point, and i don't know that it will ever completely go away (although it's not as bad as it was when i was a teenager and even just eating at all was a disturbing experience where i spent the rest of the day dreading how it would come back out of me).
your work has meant a lot to me in relation to this... i remember before the phobia developed, as a kid, i was fascinated by vomiting and would obsess over any experiences i had with it and talk people's ears off about it. i was grossed out, but also really interested and unafraid. (i guess i do the same obsessing now, only it's colored with fear and physically overwhelming disgust.) i remember when i first read that people have a fetish for vomiting that i was really afraid and disgusted, and i told myself that i didn't get it. but i think i did already understand that there's not that much difference between fetish and fear- that maybe for me, there was a fork in the road in childhood where my fascination could have developed in one way or another.
anyway, the way you write about it, and about vomit-adjacent experiences (any lack of control over the body is vomit-adjacent to me), i can tell that some of the root of why it's so horrifying and difficult to cope with for me is visible to you, which is that feeling of being out of control of one's body, and deeply vulnerable, and turning inside out, and not knowing if it will ever end or if i'll be living in this experience forever and ever... and it can be very sudden, i don't necessarily know when my body might betray me by doing this. you convey that, and the grossness of it, and what i feel is an inherent horror, in a way that somehow feels very tender- maybe just seeing and acknowledging these things is tenderness? but i felt comfort where usually i would feel only fear and discomfort- i was comforted and discomforted simultaneously and that felt even better than just being comforted.
and also i could finally acknowledge the appeal of it as a fetish. and almost wish that i could turn my fear into that fetish. maybe one day i could! probably not. but being able to acknowledge the understanding felt good. anyway, thank you for your art.
also i wanted to ask because i feel like having a phobia of it clouds my vision and prevents me from seeing all the things it can represent to other people, so i have my own ideas but: why does insul puke so much? lmao.

I discovered your work during a Wikipedia deep dive about 6 months ago and immediately fell in love…it feels like it came to me at the exact perfect time. Everything you make is so beautifully disgusting…

I read serious weakness a few weeks after dropping out of university due to adhd and it immediately became one of my favourite books. Very cathartic read…Trianon’s line “I’ll always have to work harder than everyone else. I’m so tired of it. I just want someone else to take care of me.” was the first time I’ve ever seen that feeling depicted anywhere. Also loved the ending. Many other writers probably would have had Trianon kill Insul and run away with Oenone but what you went with was so much more interesting and thematically satisfying…returning to his old life would kill trianon just as much as the aquarium killed that shark (tho maybe a different kind of death)

Anyways thanks for infecting me with your art…I’m excited to keep absorbing it for many more years