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Nameless Grub · 5d
Read "Cupbearer to the Gods" and everytime I keep thinking I have boundaries in what can be handled in fiction, your stuff instills such an addictive fear it almost feels illegal. Had to look behind my shoulder to make sure I wouldnt get in trouble.
Thank u for making freaky as hell art as always!!!!!!!! ... I'm so interested to hear insight on such a fucked up world (though honestly maybe not all that far off seeing the people in Power lol...)
Nameless Grub · 6d
high kill shelter is the most elegant story i have read in a while. every element of the interaction between the dogs and their meat is a node and when it’s brought together it’s a texture that feels good on the brain. nothing is wasted. it’s like feeling both the inside and outside of a thing simultaneously, as one thing without conflict but instead streamlined into one system like a mobius strip. i think there’s an low hanging sex metaphor in that but i’m too sleapy to follow thru 💤🛏🦡
Nameless Grub · 11d
Thank you so much for High Kill Shelter. You really get how hot the brutality of brute forcing a person into something that is no longer the shape of a person is. This is what I mean when I say cnc petplay!
This reminded me a lot of an rp I did a long time ago with a good friend who's dead now. We had a lot of fun turning her into a crude pained thing in the shape of a dog. I miss her a lot and this really made my day 💛
Nameless Grub · 17d
just read 18 foot leash and gahhhhhhh horrible! but amazing! feels incredible because i think i understand both ends - "i want to put my shit in you" and "you are moving/commanding me with your dirty insides" and it's just so real. to connect with someone solely by infecting them with your own shit. to take on someone's shit from adoration. a relationship that only gets dirtier, never cleaner. turns everyone involved into some kind of inhuman but supernatural thing - the way a crisis brings out extreme strength in someone but damages them with a power they aren't made to withstand sort of thing. real real real. also i love coffee and you made the most beautiful and disgusting form of something i love. thank you.
thank you. the hidden world is always influencing but people don't like to think about the weather of gut flora and parasites passing through us. they want the head to be in control and fuck the world like a penis. but i think they are so beautiful, the many smaller penises inside 💜 and i just love coffee and when folgers approached me to do their new commercial, i couldn't say no
Nameless Grub · 17d
Thank you for all the incest (insect!) dynamics in your work and the life energy with which you imbue them, it really speaks to me. The boundless desire of splintered raped dislocated hungry people for a friend and lover and sibling and parent and teacher etc etc. Being a lot, wanting a lot, fitting so many roles inside the guys. I haven’t had a relationship like that in my own life but it characterises all of my experiences of attraction and I hope to find it one day (reading SW with head dreamily in hand like a sentimental victorian). Normally I have to tread carefully exploring this stuff as a CSA survivor because a lot of art about it is death to me, but your writing is one of the few places where me and my wound holes can just breathe and get inspirited with Truth.., in a hot way where you fuck your brother 🪱✌️
highly concentrated weapons-grade incest…being a lot, wanting a lot, two boys opening wounds in each other trying to give birth to each other, it’s a complicated sucking wound, being ripped from family. on the bright side, it makes for great porn…
yes, I need to do it a particular way or it’s “death to me”. there's a lot of it in my writing but my next projects are EXTREMELY focused on this 🪱🍷
thank you. I hope you can mix your own incest insect cocktail <3
Nameless Grub · 15d
really really satisfying getting to the end of CTE season 2. love love love your work and support always
some thoughts from a cunt fan
- greenwich!!! i love her. the notion of a personal servitude to god and the subsequent brain programming that happens in a creature like this...too relatable. an endless measure of the distance from god. would love to learn more about her
- oh rubi... it must hurt to feel used to impersonally and for so little. or to feel like he is not the main antagonist (only an instrument in the struggles of others -> POWERFUL WHOLE MEN)
- i am still laughing over lip balm okay
- lazur being called prince of peace....nghhhhhhhh. but the qatran can't really be defused / and there isn't a countdown in the conventional sense (how do you defuse a word in the matter of seconds?) no more familiar bombs, cortazar
- cal terrifying and cal terrified. both lovely
- what a colourful cast around a colourless? colour-ending? weapon
can't wait for 3rd season !!! but also take care and i hope you are having a good life !!!
-yesss i love her, the next episode will have some greenwich lore drops <3
-yeah, rubi hates that. he knows he was meant to be a villain, even if he craves the acceptance of older men. lazur sees his humanity. cal allows him to do what he's good at. but ultimately they are both planners, and he’s an explosion…
-LIP BALLLLLM. THERE IS A BALM IN XGILEAD
-mmm the bombs are all strange now...no clean separation...permamission...the only countdown is his heart... however many beats remain to it.
-haha yes it is good to see him in full evil mode but also terrified and pathetic.
-exactly… this thing that all colors die in. their dreams, everything that makes them unique…swallowed up by insatiable violence.
thanks for reading <3 i’ll def be resting up before working on the next but i really wanna... 💣
Nameless Grub · 13d
Approximately how much time passed in Serious Weakness?
Nameless Grub · 13d
thank you for greenwich mean time. never read a character who thinks about justice, vengeance & god in a way that is relatable to my experience. never read a character who feels truly aspirational like she does. no question just thanks.
Nameless Grub · 29d
hi i love serious weakness!! it's the best thing i've read in 2022 and it has consumed my soul! serious weakness but with girls is my yuri love lesbian with a boyfriend slaughter obsession! have you thought about making a playlist for it? i love your writing xoxo.
Nameless Grub · 24d
sorry to probably be the 90 millionth person to ask!! when is ur book coming out on kindle/ebook? thank U thank U!
Nameless Grub · 29d
love INNOCENTverse so much and am so so excited for it. can i ask what the slogans on the website mean/if theyre references to anything? ive enjoyed trying to piece them together on my own and have a few guesses but cannot make much sense of it
thank you! 😇
mel timoris can be seen as a mechanical description of Ahrimanic/xrafstar biology, torture/bacteria as fuel; or a warning: do not make yourself sweet with fear or the flies will come.
donec ignoscat has some attachment to the theological notion of TOTAL DEPRAVITY
or that this world has been abandoned by god until it can be proven worthy of redemption.
it is interesting because these phrases are passed down as mnemonics which contain very real truths about biology, cosmology, etc, but are easily turned into theofascist meat mantras.
every era has a different interpretation
dead language is broken down by the living
as are all things enslaved by death
for their uses
Nameless Grub · 1mo
thank you for putting me on to scrivener. after many sporadic attempts at writing over the years im finally starting to wisen up and find some kind of way to sculpture. the gems of advice or pointers you've put out there about the creative process have really helped shift my mindset. notable analogies you've put forth about threading moments together and working from a kitchen cabinet of ideas but also the idea to work with your body, work with your energy levels. love hearing about your creative process and hope you will share more process notes in the future. hope you're well.
Nameless Grub · 1mo
im not sure if u have before but can u talk a bit about the erohazard symbol ? ur works rlly resonate w me but something abt the symbol just blew me away, so much so i knew immediately i wanted it either branded, tattooed or scarred in my skin. id just love to hear more about it, what it means, the history, etc… if thats something youve thought abt before
the symbol is by Evan, as part of a series of INNOCENT signs indicating zone hazards/conditions
like many effective symbols, it has been independently discovered in many cultures throughout history
like anything with X’s or O’s or smiley faces
i'm sure there's other symbols that combine these elements
but Evan made this one working on our game. i'm glad you like it. you can see the other signs here. very grateful to the INNOCENT propaganda wing. <3
the feeling is what it is
Nameless Grub · 2mo
i lied, but this is more of a personal thank you. I've read serious weakness enough times to have 580 highlights in my reading app. A few particular phrases highlighted into obscurity: but the smell of fresh copper intrudes, in this world without connection, because love isn't real. im so tired of it. Like what you said about guns. one way. withholding is power. im clearly bad at the last, but i figured mindless praise wouldn't be minded. You filled a little bit of my souls cavity.
Nameless Grub · 1mo
wanted to leave a note: i'm not sure if my interpretation is entirely what was intended (which i ultimately value, the author's sentiment is important to me) but 18 foot leash is one of the most beautiful, terrible, real depictions of how love changes you. i started crying after reading it. it captures the violence of falling in love, especially when one feels beyond repair. not to of course detract from anything else; i just think it all ties together, reaching this message that is so human or perhaps animal, even insect. also cried during it yet not from emotion but from how gross it was, like when your eyes water and lips pucker after eating a sour lemon. i mean this in the most admiring way possible. what a wordsmith you are. it's insane how you thread this through anal coffee. i love everything about your xrafstar. i will never forget this, thank you
you have no idea how much this ask means to me…
it’s basically the story i expected no one else to be into, but very personal to me, for a long time.
it can be hard to reach for love, if someone feels they only deserve addiction. this lonely, hollow substitute, endlessly recycled, pleasure without joy…anal coffee!!
i’m working on more leash:
-one is done and i’ll post it sometime, very short and peripheral, part of the same timeline. it’s awful
-the other takes place in a more…INNOCENT time. a reboot of the same characters. exploring the threads started in 18 foot leash. ano-sadistic solipsism, the soul versus addiction, NEW AND EXCITING BOY TECHNOLOGIES…
eyes watering…that’s the perfect duality of 18 foot leash, the longing that nausea can hide, always humiliating and devaluing the beauty that could save your soul, until you can’t–dripping for the worst and best reasons.
thank you for enabling my madness…thank you for loving xrafstar!! 😭😭💜💜💜