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Nameless Grub · 7d
Hi! So I'm the reptilian who asked something yesterday and I realized I left a couple details out- I apologize for that, I can be a bit forgetful sometimes. Anyways! All I wanted to say that I didn't say prior is that, as a former scout (was in the program for quite a while), I find Cancer (from Scout's Honor, that is- it's a lovely story so far, from what I've read!) to be an oddly relatable character. I have a lot of hazy memories of being disgustingly sick at campouts or summer camps, and, additionally, you put that feeling of being misplaced among the other boys in an excellent way!!!
The second thing I had in mind is less a comment and more a question- I really enjoy reading about the Innocentverse and things related to it, and I was thinking of drawing or writing about a Xrafstar character- my main question is the degree of variability between their physical forms! (I was thinking of making a kingsnake-esque dude with sort of a jutting, snoutlike jaw, and I was wondering if this was in the realm of possibility for them!)
yay, i was a scout too. it's a great place to be sick. and yes, was completely unable to integrate with the rest of the fascist breeding pool...
lovely...heartwarming...much agreed...lovely story about parasite trying to torture boy to death...a real day at the races...i wanna post the next episode of scout's honor soon, and some completely sicko oneshots. thank you!
kingsnake jaw, so sexy! xrafstar can be anything from “stealth passing” to “furry anthro” to “fucked” so have a dino blast! would love to see if you make one!
Nameless Grub · 2d
so jonquil was from leashverse first? 👁 intriguing...
Nameless Grub · 8d
hello there!!! i'm not sure if you'll see this (i'm not entirely sure how this website works, haven't used it before), but i just want to say that i enjoy your work quite a lot from what i've read!! (so far it's been Your Mother Has Fallen Out Of Love With You, Protection From Gravity, and i started reading Scout's Honor, along some other misc stuff!)
i suppose i just want to say thank you! even if i'm new to your body of work i kind of feel as if a weird weight has been lifted, like some weird channel of clogged desire just got yanked open, and i plan to read more of it soon! (particularly planning on checking out Torture Works!)
on another note, i really like your writing style- it's definitely variable from story to story but a lot of it feels very sticky and wet and i like that! and your fixation on the gut (the bowels especially) in your stuff is something i feel as if i can relate to (reminds me of bataille!)
i suppose that's all- not really any questions at the moment, just a word of appreciation!
cheers from a reptilian boygirl!
nice picks, dropped into the deep end of the septic tank!!
i’m very glad to hear that. without desire, there is no consciousness. hope you enjoy any additional torture materials.
yes! the guts are the source of my generative power...my hookworm muse, my haruspexing! thanks for writing! <33 🦎🪰
Nameless Grub · 2d
apologies if this was asked b4...but if laz and rubi were xrafstarred what type would they be 🪰 personally i could see centipede rubicon but post boysplosion im not sure how it would affect the parasite
i think of them on the pathogen spectrum; rubi in leashverse (the wet universe!) would be infected by a catastrophic, flesh-eating, highly stylized virus that left him bedridden and in need of constant care (i've thought about this before...). lazur would be, of course, a doctor specializing in deadly exotic diseases. but IF they were animals, i can totally see the centipede rubicon, yeah! :D or maybe a yellowjacket...and post-explosion, a phantom limb spider, a feline arachnid. lazur is a maned wolf.
Nameless Grub · 4d
my gf said that fem riparian should lay eggs and i think that's beautiful... there are some parasite breeding ideas to be had here 💭💭💭
uaawgh yes I've thought about this a lot. there's def a version of the parasite/disease that stuffs every inch of Cancer's guts with bug eggs. I actually drew a pic of Cancer giving birth but never finished it, maybe I'll clean it up sometime, and/or write a little scene for the eventual Cancer compilation. and the secret page on the shrine has a spurty pic by krabat...
HOWEVER, I did finish a story for an ero horror anthology and it has egg/ovipositor action in a religious horror setting (moth lovers may particularly enjoy), and I will post about it when that comes out! stay strong eggfuckers... ✌️🥚💦
Nameless Grub · 8d
I dreamt that I was at a party at Calendula's mansion (for some reason), then that I was reading a full manga adaptation of Cunt Toward Enemy. I remember that the artstyle looked a lot like that of Tsurugi no Kuni no Arnis (which I only found out about and read because you put images from it in your Leash shrine).
I was quite disappointed in the lack of real-world CTE manga when I woke up.
I love Arnis, Yamamoto Atsuji's work is so underrated! the guro is truly exceptional, and the later issues do incredible things with a minimal red/black palette and watercolor(?). I think of Greenwich in his style, esp some of his dark haired bleeding ballistic women in Ammo. AND he's down with the girly boys; his Mr Boy series and the pics he posts on twitter.
very glad you checked it out, mudlarking in the shrine...
the next episode of CTE may very well take place in Cal's residence...and yes, a cunt comic would be so fun, probably my preferred format for it in an ideal world, tbh! I really think some of my stories would be better as comics or movies but sans resources, games are a decent alternative. thanks for reading my dreamanga... 💣
Nameless Grub · 4d
what software was maggot therapy made in and would you recommend it for beginner videolaga makers? i really like the checkpoint/chapter select system and i rlly wanna make my own videolaga but ive never done it before
I made it in gamemaker. thanks, I'm proud of how the checkpoint select looks! really wanted to highlight Evan's art as much as I could...sexy opposing hands...
gamemaker makes certain things easier but you still have to do so many things from scratch that honestly for a beginner I'd recommend rpgmaker, which is what I use nowadays. it's just FUN and you can make a guy walk around and talk to stuff INSTANTLY. and if you want to put your own graphics in, you can open the default tilesheets/sprites in your favorite image editor and see exactly how to edit or replace them. and then you can export your game to browser and anyone can play it!
main thing is that rpgmaker needs plugins to really work, but it has a ton of good ones and I really recommend it as someone's first videolagamaker experience. other engines might be more technically flexible but that immediate feeling of playing with dolls and painting the map and having a preset example of all the different elements of a game, is a great introduction.
RPG Maker MV is on sale for 12 bucks right now, and goes low as 8. It is the previous one in the series and has the most resources/plugins available for it. The newest one, MZ, is catching up, and the plugin space is really good for it now (and there’s a prog to make MV plugins work in it). I got MZ for like 30 something (never buy an rpgmaker unless it’s on sale). The new features like plugin commands+movement preview+event list save a lot of time, but either version is good for a beginner! good luck videolagist...
Nameless Grub · 5d
How does Riparian react to menstrual smells?
BUDDY.....i'm working on two stories about exactly this, and one is the cancer tboy strip mall endometriosis and it is a bloodshit fuckfest and the other is cancer getting her first period and her school nurse is fem riparian. riparian goes fucking crazy for that shit (despite his misogynistic tendencies). i would like to post them on my patreon and/or blog early in 2025! 🩸👅🩸
Nameless Grub · 4d
tboy Insul. Insul with a pussy would be breathtaking
Nameless Grub · 6d
tboy oenone ,????
without the straitjacket of his respectable family/appearance-focused job, surrounded by two guys making out constantly, he realizes he always wanted to be one of the boys, and now he has a safe environment (being kidnapped) to explore DIY testosterone. or maybe tria goes to the doctor and gets a prescription for his low T and gives it to oenone. and they all fuck, "break in your new faggot body", etc
Nameless Grub · 6d
since its the season, how do you think insul, trianon and oenone would celebrate christmas?
green haired boy covered in blood what's more festive than that
insul: getting presents for basically first time in his life + hooking ornaments into tria's cheeks, tongue, balls, etc
trianon: overthinking the perfect presents to get for the bitch who kidnapped him / bitch he is currently kidnapping
oenone: santa hat
oenone 2: planning escape but realizes winter is a bad time for it, ends up getting high and spitroasting tria with insul
Nameless Grub · 6d
imagined tboy cancer prize ….
Nameless Grub · 8d
i feel like cancer prize would be so so good slotted into a medical role. probably not a doctor but a nurse, maybe in the ER or a field hospital... the irony of trying so hard to be virtuous and heal the sick while having an easily upset stomach and mind, the attempt to put distance between yourself and the sick because it would be an acknowledgment of your own failures to show visible sympathy and kinship with them, the cleaning chemicals, the long periods of extreme sleep deprivation, the substance abuse, the caffeine diarrhea... it's all so him to me
i'm writing a bunch of Cancer medical stuff right now actually!! i agree SO...SO MUCH. and i see his handler as having a medical background.
INNOCENT triage center. raiding the drug locker, tweaking and bloodspattered, coffee shits, trying not to throw up in an endless parade of open wounds. he'd look so cute in a nurse outfit...florence fuckin nightsoil...i’ll throw in a lil nurse action just for you! 👌
Nameless Grub · 9d
I was recently hospitalised for severe guts-related issues and reading 18 Foot Leash really helped me get in the appropriate shitting mindset. Thank you very much.
I loved the vibe of the horrid seaside town and I'm happy Cancer got to stumble through so much of it.
Nameless Grub · 15d
hello! i am only mildly familiar with your work but i started reading cupbearer to the gods after snooping around your digital presence and i must reccomend you Co-Ire by rene scherer and guy hocquenghem if you have not read it already. non-fiction "pedopunk" analysis of childhood with Zoroastrianism terms used