Nameless Grub · 17d
in response to a question about muscles you said "the primary modality of physical cultivation in my universe is through dance" and that + the rest of it is driving me crazy. i am a former ballet dancer and i think ballet is more like something that you would make up to torture twinks than something real. i did other kinds of dance after but most of them were kind of the same, just desperately throwing my body into pleasing shapes, pain, failing and never stopping. ballet was the cruelest though. its espoused values of purity and gentleness can tell you how fucked up and evil it is. it eats toddlers. have you ever seen a foot stretcher? i used one. i danced en pointe really badly and theres nothing sadder and more pathetic than that. i still miss it. if you dont cut ur toenails super short your pointe shoes will push them back and make them turn purpleblack and fall off. i could go on about this for hours. i would love to know your thoughts. kisses
oh my god THANK YOU. yes ballet is so beautiful and evil. I should put Cancer in a foot stretcher. I will post various things this year about the xrafstarverse and dance but basically "cool physical movements" and dancing are how disease powers are unleashed. so Cancer's handler subjects him to "whiplash meets ballet meets medfet" regimens to maximize his fever overdrive potential. I love to dance and do it every day. it is how I understand my environment and navigate spatially. I want to spread music and dance through what I make...
If I make a game, it must be very physical and dancerly. I made it so Cancer can grind on rails and spin around. even within the confines of rpgmaker, I want to at least use animations and extensive hand fetishism to convey my dream. but it's on the backburner while I take care of existing projects.
the OA, and Nahobino from SMT V are also my idol in this regard. I live for the veneration of the skintight boy dancing for his life. if you have any gruesome info for me, please share or DM in some way so I can incorporate it into the story. Thank you dancer! <3
