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Nameless Grub · 14h
different anon from muscle anon but when that was initially sent in my FIRST thought was greenwich. specifically greenwich getting off from having her face repeatedly mashed into the bathroom mirror. she seems like just enough of an endorphin freak to crave exercise to me
i thought of her too actually! losing muscle tone was very frustrating for her so she's super focused on getting buff again/speedrunning physical therapy, and the violence-parasite inside her is making it a lot easier. it's a fun contrast with her stoic nature, this pressure building up, using Laz to vent it, and rationalizing it into her zeal. she fantasizes about throwing herself off buildings and getting hit by cars. the moment of adrenaline when you realize you're still alive and walk away. at this point in the story she's a hardbody living weapon and can kill pretty much anything...
Nameless Grub · 5d
how do you feel about muscles or working out? to me it seems like a form of cellular masochism, lots of things going on there, or a form of euphoric self punishment. do you have any characters who do it, or have some psychological catharsis through it, like maybe lazur or insul? i dont know who to picture as particularly more athletic than others or if you like the aesthetic of muscles itself over twinks
i like weak guys and muscular women. some of my characters are athletic but in a wiry way. insul got a late growth spurt so he has little guy insecurity in a tall body. lazur is sort of leon kennedy protagonist build but he’s lost weight from…circumstances. the primary modality of physical cultivation in my universe is through dance. everything is dance. nothing can cease to dance, only dance badly.
if someone has muscles in my stories it's probably a sign that something bad is going to happen to them...or that they're a woman. and that something bad is going to happen to them
Nameless Grub · 1d
just had an experience which reminded me of you. I'm dealing with covid right now. im feeling bad. I'm having to pressure wash out taco bell shit with a bidet. as i try and squirt out the water. i realize what the feeling in my throat is. I'm over the side of my plastic bathtub/shower combo. I vomit. it's bad. i take a moment to recooperate, when i take an actual look at the watery mess.
i realize that strewn throughout it's general transparency are little teal streaks of Mountain Dew Baja Blast. at this point. i truly understand what it means to be the aphid fagthing omelas child for an e-sports team.
thank you for the puke report!! that's how i'd like to be remembered, when people have the worst shit of their lives...
hope you feel better! and please try to get some real nutrition, fried food and soda is harsh on your body esp while sick, and you need proper whole foods to ensure the best recovery! 🙏
Nameless Grub · 2d
I am not fully caught up with leash or cunt and apparently he doid regardless but I just saw the name Joe Grammaton and am shot through with love. Joe Grammaton. So awkward and dignified, mumbled and clear. I would have such a crush on a boy named Joe Grammaton. Hope to meet him in the ether of culled ideas one night 🌙 joe grammaton🥰
Nameless Grub · 10d
Hi! So I'm the reptilian who asked something yesterday and I realized I left a couple details out- I apologize for that, I can be a bit forgetful sometimes. Anyways! All I wanted to say that I didn't say prior is that, as a former scout (was in the program for quite a while), I find Cancer (from Scout's Honor, that is- it's a lovely story so far, from what I've read!) to be an oddly relatable character. I have a lot of hazy memories of being disgustingly sick at campouts or summer camps, and, additionally, you put that feeling of being misplaced among the other boys in an excellent way!!!
The second thing I had in mind is less a comment and more a question- I really enjoy reading about the Innocentverse and things related to it, and I was thinking of drawing or writing about a Xrafstar character- my main question is the degree of variability between their physical forms! (I was thinking of making a kingsnake-esque dude with sort of a jutting, snoutlike jaw, and I was wondering if this was in the realm of possibility for them!)
yay, i was a scout too. it's a great place to be sick. and yes, was completely unable to integrate with the rest of the fascist breeding pool...
lovely...heartwarming...much agreed...lovely story about parasite trying to torture boy to death...a real day at the races...i wanna post the next episode of scout's honor soon, and some completely sicko oneshots. thank you!
kingsnake jaw, so sexy! xrafstar can be anything from “stealth passing” to “furry anthro” to “fucked” so have a dino blast! would love to see if you make one!
Nameless Grub · 4d
so jonquil was from leashverse first? 👁 intriguing...
Nameless Grub · 11d
hello there!!! i'm not sure if you'll see this (i'm not entirely sure how this website works, haven't used it before), but i just want to say that i enjoy your work quite a lot from what i've read!! (so far it's been Your Mother Has Fallen Out Of Love With You, Protection From Gravity, and i started reading Scout's Honor, along some other misc stuff!)
i suppose i just want to say thank you! even if i'm new to your body of work i kind of feel as if a weird weight has been lifted, like some weird channel of clogged desire just got yanked open, and i plan to read more of it soon! (particularly planning on checking out Torture Works!)
on another note, i really like your writing style- it's definitely variable from story to story but a lot of it feels very sticky and wet and i like that! and your fixation on the gut (the bowels especially) in your stuff is something i feel as if i can relate to (reminds me of bataille!)
i suppose that's all- not really any questions at the moment, just a word of appreciation!
cheers from a reptilian boygirl!
nice picks, dropped into the deep end of the septic tank!!
i’m very glad to hear that. without desire, there is no consciousness. hope you enjoy any additional torture materials.
yes! the guts are the source of my generative power...my hookworm muse, my haruspexing! thanks for writing! <33 🦎🪰
Nameless Grub · 5d
apologies if this was asked b4...but if laz and rubi were xrafstarred what type would they be 🪰 personally i could see centipede rubicon but post boysplosion im not sure how it would affect the parasite
i think of them on the pathogen spectrum; rubi in leashverse (the wet universe!) would be infected by a catastrophic, flesh-eating, highly stylized virus that left him bedridden and in need of constant care (i've thought about this before...). lazur would be, of course, a doctor specializing in deadly exotic diseases. but IF they were animals, i can totally see the centipede rubicon, yeah! :D or maybe a yellowjacket...and post-explosion, a phantom limb spider, a feline arachnid. lazur is a maned wolf.
Nameless Grub · 6d
my gf said that fem riparian should lay eggs and i think that's beautiful... there are some parasite breeding ideas to be had here 💭💭💭
uaawgh yes I've thought about this a lot. there's def a version of the parasite/disease that stuffs every inch of Cancer's guts with bug eggs. I actually drew a pic of Cancer giving birth but never finished it, maybe I'll clean it up sometime, and/or write a little scene for the eventual Cancer compilation. and the secret page on the shrine has a spurty pic by krabat...
HOWEVER, I did finish a story for an ero horror anthology and it has egg/ovipositor action in a religious horror setting (moth lovers may particularly enjoy), and I will post about it when that comes out! stay strong eggfuckers... ✌️🥚💦
Nameless Grub · 11d
I dreamt that I was at a party at Calendula's mansion (for some reason), then that I was reading a full manga adaptation of Cunt Toward Enemy. I remember that the artstyle looked a lot like that of Tsurugi no Kuni no Arnis (which I only found out about and read because you put images from it in your Leash shrine).
I was quite disappointed in the lack of real-world CTE manga when I woke up.
I love Arnis, Yamamoto Atsuji's work is so underrated! the guro is truly exceptional, and the later issues do incredible things with a minimal red/black palette and watercolor(?). I think of Greenwich in his style, esp some of his dark haired bleeding ballistic women in Ammo. AND he's down with the girly boys; his Mr Boy series and the pics he posts on twitter.
very glad you checked it out, mudlarking in the shrine...
the next episode of CTE may very well take place in Cal's residence...and yes, a cunt comic would be so fun, probably my preferred format for it in an ideal world, tbh! I really think some of my stories would be better as comics or movies but sans resources, games are a decent alternative. thanks for reading my dreamanga... 💣
Nameless Grub · 7d
what software was maggot therapy made in and would you recommend it for beginner videolaga makers? i really like the checkpoint/chapter select system and i rlly wanna make my own videolaga but ive never done it before
I made it in gamemaker. thanks, I'm proud of how the checkpoint select looks! really wanted to highlight Evan's art as much as I could...sexy opposing hands...
gamemaker makes certain things easier but you still have to do so many things from scratch that honestly for a beginner I'd recommend rpgmaker, which is what I use nowadays. it's just FUN and you can make a guy walk around and talk to stuff INSTANTLY. and if you want to put your own graphics in, you can open the default tilesheets/sprites in your favorite image editor and see exactly how to edit or replace them. and then you can export your game to browser and anyone can play it!
main thing is that rpgmaker needs plugins to really work, but it has a ton of good ones and I really recommend it as someone's first videolagamaker experience. other engines might be more technically flexible but that immediate feeling of playing with dolls and painting the map and having a preset example of all the different elements of a game, is a great introduction.
RPG Maker MV is on sale for 12 bucks right now, and goes low as 8. It is the previous one in the series and has the most resources/plugins available for it. The newest one, MZ, is catching up, and the plugin space is really good for it now (and there’s a prog to make MV plugins work in it). I got MZ for like 30 something (never buy an rpgmaker unless it’s on sale). The new features like plugin commands+movement preview+event list save a lot of time, but either version is good for a beginner! good luck videolagist...
Nameless Grub · 8d
How does Riparian react to menstrual smells?
BUDDY.....i'm working on two stories about exactly this, and one is the cancer tboy strip mall endometriosis and it is a bloodshit fuckfest and the other is cancer getting her first period and her school nurse is fem riparian. riparian goes fucking crazy for that shit (despite his misogynistic tendencies). i would like to post them on my patreon and/or blog early in 2025! 🩸👅🩸
Nameless Grub · 7d
tboy Insul. Insul with a pussy would be breathtaking
Nameless Grub · 8d
tboy oenone ,????
without the straitjacket of his respectable family/appearance-focused job, surrounded by two guys making out constantly, he realizes he always wanted to be one of the boys, and now he has a safe environment (being kidnapped) to explore DIY testosterone. or maybe tria goes to the doctor and gets a prescription for his low T and gives it to oenone. and they all fuck, "break in your new faggot body", etc
Nameless Grub · 8d
since its the season, how do you think insul, trianon and oenone would celebrate christmas?
green haired boy covered in blood what's more festive than that
insul: getting presents for basically first time in his life + hooking ornaments into tria's cheeks, tongue, balls, etc
trianon: overthinking the perfect presents to get for the bitch who kidnapped him / bitch he is currently kidnapping
oenone: santa hat
oenone 2: planning escape but realizes winter is a bad time for it, ends up getting high and spitroasting tria with insul