Well, it's difficult to answer because pre covid, I didn't have joy in my life and now I do.

But I would say the ability to not let go, because it mattered that much at the time. Now I can just accept it more peacefully. I thought it was the way to go back then, doggedly fighting tooth and nail with all the emotions I have in me. In the end if it wasn't meant to be, it'll just be our own annihilation and descent into madness.