I took 3 naps today. I HAD A NIGHTMARE. EVERY. TIME.

1st nightmare I had, I finally 'lucid' dreamed. I wasn't really in control of anything, I just knew I was dreaming. But I decided to try and astral project just to see if I could,,, uh- I imagined my surroundings and pictured my body on the floor. It worked but uhhh- yeah no it really didn't because my body jerked up like we were in a horror movie and immediately began staring me down while looking me in the eyes. I couldn't tell it to get away from me. I couldn't move. I could feel my actual body on the floor of the room with the cold tile and tried to move myself to wake up- I could not. It took me a minute while being stared down to get my fingers to twitch, and then I was able to wake myself up. I was still tired so I went back to sleep.
2nd time, it was the second I fell asleep again. For some backstory, prey animals and predator animals have very specifically different traits. One of them being the placement of their eyes- prey animals have eyes that are more to the side so they can check their surroundings for predators. Predators eyes are more forward so they can find prey and keep track of it. Anyways, I'm still in the room and this time, the door is open. A Sandhill Crane slowly walks into the room, getting closer to me than my body had been when it did the thing. Very suddenly, it turns to stare at me, stopping all of its movements and just- /watches/. The eyes were more forward to its head. The same thing happened, I couldn't tell it to get away from me like I wanted it to. I couldn't move. I could feel my body against the cold tile floor and couldn't move it for a minute. We just stared at each other as I drowned in my dread. I woke up. I decided to go back to sleep, no way it'd happen a third time???
3)It happened a third time. This time, though, I "woke up" and moved the book that I'd put over my eyes to keep the Sun out, just to see my friend /right/ next to me, under the table I was sleeping next to. She was whispering something to me, something I couldn't make out or it was seriously just gibberish. "What?" I asked, and then my throat closed up and I realized I needed to wake up /right/ then. She was going to do something, she could /reach/ me unlike the other two, I needed to wake up before she started staring. I did. I am scared to go to sleep tonight FUCKING HELL what the FUCK is my brain on????

After this, I decided sleeping was not on the plate anymore lol

Bro I... I was about to take a shower (yes, at 11 at night) but I only take showers when it's late because I don't like being bothered, yeah? Alright, I'm in the bathroom for a bit, just- doomscrolling on yt shorts cause,, yeah. Cue a knock on the door fucking- old ass bitch (step grandma) comes knocking telling me to get out because she has to use the bathroom. Fuck it, I get out because I can just take a shower as soon as she's done. I get re-dressed and step out for a second, she- SHE WALKS RIGHT PAST ME BACK INTO HER OWN BEDROOM. SHE. MOTHERFUCKER BRO I TAKE SHOWERS AT NIGHT TO AVOID THIS BULLSHIT FUCK OFFFFF