so far, it's getting better and i didn't expect it to be this quick. it's weird how i no longer have any sadness in me like how i used to, which is why it's hard for me to write something because mostly i write out of sadness, but it's a good thing, right? i feel happy to prove my past self that i'm able to reach this stage. i stopped comparing myself to other people and focus on what's in me and what's left for me to improve myself as a person. i feel like finally the time has finally come to me, the unexpected happiness that could arrive this fast. i am happy to be myself and to be the person i'm becoming. i surround myself with the goods and give myself some distance to what's bad for me. for today, i feel more than okay, but let's see what will the future holds. let's see how much the world would face me with. let's see how much i could bear it by myself. let's see if i'm able to survive once again. <3