I want it to end after death and all signs point to that being the case.

If there's choice involved of course you pick the option which grants a higher chance of being able to chose again.

Bit irrelevant really. Like Santa Claus. And God.

I'm terrified of the idea of there being nothing after this and the potential of everything I've experienced thus far being meaningless

Provided all the fuckery and disgusting bs happening around the world today, doesn't exist in the next lifetime then I'm down to continue existing

I would only want to continue if I could haunt people's toasters and stuff