i feel like this is a cycle that no one could ever break. it happens. a lot. not once or twice, it will happen from time to time, not just to you, but to everyone. it varies according to the individual. will it get progressively worse? yeah, if you choose the wrong way to handle it. will it happen again but this time with much more anticipation so that it'll not feel as painful as before? yeah, if you selectively choose the right way to conquer the feeling. it's evident, it's right in front of you, and you're the only one who can fix it. there's still so much time left in your arms, if others can do it, you can, too.