WOAHH THAT'S SO MANY!! OKAY!! I'M BOUTA ATTACK YOU WITH A FAT ANSWER DUMP. SO. PREPARE TO READ>:3

🌹- EXCITED.. retrospring has made me so happy since i got it. the thrill of questioning and answering is more than i could have ever imagined. finally being able to look through my notifications is super fun<:]

🍵- THIS WAS SUCH A SILLY QUESTION OF ME TO PUT of course i am answering questions again BUT.. i just finished doing schoolwork (only thing remarkable is i had to write a tad for english and it helped me reflect) and an acquaintance keeps randomly dming me so i'm chatting back since they're the only person alive on discord (5:15am). before that i ate some pathetic frozen taquitos and i regret that. i was hungry tho and i was NAWT goin' to eat hot buffalo wings which were the only thing else i could find to microwave <- lazy

🌴- regarding the acquaintance, i tend to be either super avoidant or super clingy with Basically anyone, but i think i have found myself on a good middle ground with them in acknowledging that we are opposing people, yet we can still keep one another around for some things!
i could never get too close to them because we're both stubborn. we'll butt heads if we're more open and talk more frequently. as a result, i try to have more responsive and controlled interactions (ex: not dming in more vulnerable states or when i'm tired) and it works for us fine. you don't have to totally avoid people you disagree with, may not understand, or have had a lot of trouble with. i did not comprehend the art of knowing how to handle completely opposite kinds of people before and that's how we stopped being friends for so long LMAO. tldr: know sometimes differences can't be helped and you can't always push, just accommodate, and know your limits with dealing with them too! i am just more gentle and calm, we win💭!

🍓- self-care by mac miller! it was my first song from him, and he's my favorite musical artist. i referenced it and it's music video in my essay again〜(￣▽￣〜) will not link unless you want me to tho!

🍀- i unironically can't take a shower at night because i'm afraid i'll slip and fall and nobody will help me. it's very irrational i know... i talked about it with the acquaintance before, but she has no clue that i am also afraid of the critters, like bugs being more active at night. this reminds me of my adjacent fear that a snake will come up from the toilet because i have heard of stories of that and that's so fucking frightening...o_o

🎐- relating to the above question (i know you wanted to hear more about the toilet turmoil/s), in the house i moved from, i have encountered a lot less of creatures in my home. i think roaches are one of the strangest things in life for me because of just how many i've seen. i've probably seen more roaches than i have dogs.
i am grateful to not have people over and them be way less peeved than me about the bugs but it's not perfect now still... overshare 101 that hopefully will not make you regret this attack: i still have to check the drinks i leave open if there's a roach swimming in it. i close one eye and i look down and slosh the drink. unfortunately, i have still probably consumed way too many and this is my fault for NOT looking and keeping drinks open because i lose caps like i change clothes.
Sorry!!!!!!!!

🧁- OH DEAR. THE FOOD RIGHT AFTER THE TOILET THINGS. SUCH ANGUISH. kiddin' i donut care (haha get it). maybe i should add a drink question because i'm craving grape juice, but some hard candy sounds great. i've always wanted to try the bone-shaped fruit-flavor ones, yk them?