if possible, i would love to change all these dark intrusive thoughts that lingers through my mind and shake myself out of this uneasy state. i would love to change into the version of me who is capable of sitting down with my feelings as i slowly try to calm them down, saying that they will be okay regardless. i would love to change into a version of myself that i recognize, a version that i am able to love; that allows me to breathe instead of letting myself suffocate while facing my lowest state