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Anonymouse Friend:)) · 2mo
Please please please don't kill or harm yourself. You are loved and you are a good person. You may be mentally ill, but that doesn't mean you matter less. I also have a bunch of people who hate me now, and I also feel terrible being in this fandom space now, but just know that you are loved and cherished as a person, and anyone who harasses you, talks badly about you, or anything of that nature is on them, not you. I hope you're doing ok, and that the new year brings you nothing but sunshine and warmth. I promise you matter, and I'm not just saying this for no reason.
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Hey, don't listen to that person or interact with them. It's ok to be insecure and to complain sometimes. People do like you or nobody would be following you. 🩷 I promise that person is just an asshat, and you shouldn't listen to anything they say.
i think im slowly getting to the point where they don't affect me as badly, im just really tired of it tbh, i stopped using curiouscat bc i got death threats for months nonstop, now retrospring has just become "oh i got an ask for the first time in months yipee!! oh nvm its a kavya wannabe trying to be spiteful and hurt me with an 80% success rate":/
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
just quit writing, your "fics" aren't unique or cute sweetie
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
this is why no one likes you, you know
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
why are you always complaining about being depressed shut up already
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 6mo
I understand you because I used to behave and speak similarly. it's a really hard habit to undo and I know you just want to feel loved and appreciated. I hope nothing but the best for you and that you find what you desire in life 💕💕
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 6mo
Hiii. I just want you to know that nobody hates you. A lot of people in the BSD fandom have gone IA because of school, work, because Elon made this app shit, or because of other personal reasons. A lot of your followers follow 200-1,000 people so they might not see your posts often to interact with. A lot of others just don't know how to interact or don't do anything other than like posts
(No shade to those people ofc but some people just don't like commenting) Other people who you see get a lot of interactions on the tl usually have a lot of fans or a singular fan who love to send a bunch of RS/strawpage submissions periodically. You do seem like a good person, and I hope you realize that there's nothing wrong with you. People don't hate you I promise.
i don't know who you are but i'd like to hug you if that's okay, to be completely honest i really don't feel like i deserve the nice comments you've made, i think i have a lot of trauma with socialising and friends and peers that tends to get triggered a lot, i don't really know how to fix that part of me but when i first saw this message pop up i went and had a bit of a cry /gen/pos i really, really appreciate your kind words and reassurances, i know logically there are plenty of reasons for being being offline and not interacting and they're all incredibly valid, i hope i don't come across as whiny or as though i have a lack of understanding for it, i try and say a lot that irl stuff always comes before fandom socmed stuff
HB · 6mo
Are you planning on writing a multichapter or a one-shot for the glucose guardian au? 👀
multi chapter😈 (wtf is that emoji its meant to be devious not silly smh) i have a few story arcs planned but need to plan more, rn i have a few key plot points that will happen but i need more of the relationship development and their growing feelings bc its slowburn my fave hehe
also an ending. i usually like to have an ending in mind for my au's and this one doesn't have one just yet:((( then again i have quite a few that also lack proper endings despite being several years old and this one is still relatively new so~
idk how many chapters or how long it will even be or how much time will pass in universe but yes absolutely multichap😈😈😈
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
Hi I left you some more stuff on Strawpage idk if you saw it yet though ❤️
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
Can you elaborate more on the Glucose Guardian au?
ohohohohoooooo idk how much you know about it, and tbh i haven't had the energy to work on it for a while (thx depression /s) but we have nepo baby businessman Dazai with disowned broke coffee shop worker Chuuya who's about to be homeless and boom. glucose guardian. throw in a controlling father on Dazai's end and some blackmail on Chuuya's end and we have absolute chaos!:DDD they are down bad but don't want to admit it and their problems escalate rapidly but they slowly realise they genuinely care about each other regardless of their contract;-;
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
What works are you most excited to work on?
tbh that varies each day, some days I'll wake up with vampire Dazai and Werewolf Chuuya fic scenes in my head, others it'll be pirate Dazai thoughts, others its my ride the cyclone au thoughts, most days it's all of the above plus new au's that i either write a mini thread about, share on a few discord servers, or develop a little in my head then scrap it (like last night, I had an idea for a dark!(and i mean dark) omegaverse au and I'm not sure whether to work on it or not), right this very second i want to work on ch2 of petrichor and all my flowers and hith but those take a lot more energy and time and guilt since it's been so long since i posted ch1 for each of them D:
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
Favorite fem! Skk HC
ive gotten rly into femskk lately but i love t4tfemskk, i love chuuya teaching dazai how to take care of her skin and her hair properly, i love them being casually intimate borrowing clothes and stealing makeup and taking naps together, if theyre afab i love them dealing with shark week and cramps together and eating icecream and crying over movies together, i love them proudly calling each other their girlfriend and kissing when people say they're "just close friends" like no they are WLW and love each other your honour (and i also hc them to be bi, but that goes for 95% of my dazai and chuuya headcanons, it's rare to deviate from that for me but it does happen on occasion)
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
Where do you get your creative brain juices (and how do I borrow them?)
pls take them i have too many it's wild in my head it's like that one page in the beast manga of all the different dazai's except it's just all my au's and ideas - i love and hate that i can find inspiration for a story from literally ANYTHING, be it a prompt, a character or story trope, a colour palette, a piece of art, music, it gets really overwhelming a lot of the time tbh i wouldn't recommend my brain but pls take all the creative juices you need i have too much
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 7mo
Least favorite aspect about writing new au's?
planning the endings and having subplots and making everything make sense, I HATE ending them and i get worried the subplots aren't interesting or are too distracting from the main plot, and i feel like my antagonists need work tbh I need to work on their motivations bc they can't all just be power hungry lol