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Anonymouse Friend:)) · 2mo
I understand you because I used to behave and speak similarly. it's a really hard habit to undo and I know you just want to feel loved and appreciated. I hope nothing but the best for you and that you find what you desire in life 💕💕
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 2mo
Hiii. I just want you to know that nobody hates you. A lot of people in the BSD fandom have gone IA because of school, work, because Elon made this app shit, or because of other personal reasons. A lot of your followers follow 200-1,000 people so they might not see your posts often to interact with. A lot of others just don't know how to interact or don't do anything other than like posts
(No shade to those people ofc but some people just don't like commenting) Other people who you see get a lot of interactions on the tl usually have a lot of fans or a singular fan who love to send a bunch of RS/strawpage submissions periodically. You do seem like a good person, and I hope you realize that there's nothing wrong with you. People don't hate you I promise.
i don't know who you are but i'd like to hug you if that's okay, to be completely honest i really don't feel like i deserve the nice comments you've made, i think i have a lot of trauma with socialising and friends and peers that tends to get triggered a lot, i don't really know how to fix that part of me but when i first saw this message pop up i went and had a bit of a cry /gen/pos i really, really appreciate your kind words and reassurances, i know logically there are plenty of reasons for being being offline and not interacting and they're all incredibly valid, i hope i don't come across as whiny or as though i have a lack of understanding for it, i try and say a lot that irl stuff always comes before fandom socmed stuff
HB · 2mo
Are you planning on writing a multichapter or a one-shot for the glucose guardian au? 👀
multi chapter😈 (wtf is that emoji its meant to be devious not silly smh) i have a few story arcs planned but need to plan more, rn i have a few key plot points that will happen but i need more of the relationship development and their growing feelings bc its slowburn my fave hehe
also an ending. i usually like to have an ending in mind for my au's and this one doesn't have one just yet:((( then again i have quite a few that also lack proper endings despite being several years old and this one is still relatively new so~
idk how many chapters or how long it will even be or how much time will pass in universe but yes absolutely multichap😈😈😈
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Hi I left you some more stuff on Strawpage idk if you saw it yet though ❤️
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Can you elaborate more on the Glucose Guardian au?
ohohohohoooooo idk how much you know about it, and tbh i haven't had the energy to work on it for a while (thx depression /s) but we have nepo baby businessman Dazai with disowned broke coffee shop worker Chuuya who's about to be homeless and boom. glucose guardian. throw in a controlling father on Dazai's end and some blackmail on Chuuya's end and we have absolute chaos!:DDD they are down bad but don't want to admit it and their problems escalate rapidly but they slowly realise they genuinely care about each other regardless of their contract;-;
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
What works are you most excited to work on?
tbh that varies each day, some days I'll wake up with vampire Dazai and Werewolf Chuuya fic scenes in my head, others it'll be pirate Dazai thoughts, others its my ride the cyclone au thoughts, most days it's all of the above plus new au's that i either write a mini thread about, share on a few discord servers, or develop a little in my head then scrap it (like last night, I had an idea for a dark!(and i mean dark) omegaverse au and I'm not sure whether to work on it or not), right this very second i want to work on ch2 of petrichor and all my flowers and hith but those take a lot more energy and time and guilt since it's been so long since i posted ch1 for each of them D:
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Favorite fem! Skk HC
ive gotten rly into femskk lately but i love t4tfemskk, i love chuuya teaching dazai how to take care of her skin and her hair properly, i love them being casually intimate borrowing clothes and stealing makeup and taking naps together, if theyre afab i love them dealing with shark week and cramps together and eating icecream and crying over movies together, i love them proudly calling each other their girlfriend and kissing when people say they're "just close friends" like no they are WLW and love each other your honour (and i also hc them to be bi, but that goes for 95% of my dazai and chuuya headcanons, it's rare to deviate from that for me but it does happen on occasion)
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Where do you get your creative brain juices (and how do I borrow them?)
pls take them i have too many it's wild in my head it's like that one page in the beast manga of all the different dazai's except it's just all my au's and ideas - i love and hate that i can find inspiration for a story from literally ANYTHING, be it a prompt, a character or story trope, a colour palette, a piece of art, music, it gets really overwhelming a lot of the time tbh i wouldn't recommend my brain but pls take all the creative juices you need i have too much
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 3mo
Least favorite aspect about writing new au's?
planning the endings and having subplots and making everything make sense, I HATE ending them and i get worried the subplots aren't interesting or are too distracting from the main plot, and i feel like my antagonists need work tbh I need to work on their motivations bc they can't all just be power hungry lol
Sarah · 5mo
I'm not good with questions, I just hope you're okay and taking care of yourself!
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 5mo
whats heavy is the head about?
Heavy is the Head That Wears the Crown is my Historical Royalty Omegaverse AU where Chuuya is in an arranged marriage with Dazai, has magic, is genderfluid, and has to hide it all to survive in a toxic unsafe kingdom - starting as enemies who want nothing more to do with each other, they pretend to be a happily married couple until they actually fall - and they fall /hard/, but a war is looming and political tensions are rising, and while a happy ending is always guaranteed, it may not be the one they originally desired;)
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 5mo
its okay take your time! I would never want to seem pushy or rush you. Take care of yourself and don burn yourself out! I know how hard the process can be and how hard artists tend to be on themselves :,) i hope youll learn to be kinder to yourself and have more faith in ur work 🙏 we are greatful for the stories we get 🫶🫶🫶
ajhsdhjkfshdfjks tbh the pressure kind of helps in a weird way, since i know people want it and i know people will be there to read it (at least i hope they'll read it lol), I've been putting off working on my other longer wips because they flopped so badly despite people being excited and hyping them up that I lost all my motivation for them and don't see the point in writing something no one wants to read, so to have people actively saying they want it is actually really motivating (when done in polite ways, dw you are polite but ik other writers have had issues in the past with people demanding fics in a rude way and there's a whole tangent i could go on with that) but tldr little things like this like "hi i really like this i'm really looking forward to when it comes out" i genuinely find very motivating and helpful tbh!!<3333 (why do the 3's on retrospring look so weird help)
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 5mo
i love chuuya angst i think you should be mean to chuuya 🙏🙏🙏 (but i think he deserves a happy ending after whatever he goes thru😌)
Anonymouse Friend:)) · 5mo
ive read every little snippet youve shared of your new sugar daddy au and im. SO EXCITED for it!!! youre a very good writer and i love your fics! do you have any estimate for how long its gonna be or how long it will take, or are you just gonna go with the flow? :3
aaahhhh tysm for the love and support on it!!! thats really sweet of you😭😭😭💜🩵🩷 tbh i don't have estimates - i suffer from Slow Writerism™️ and due to my disabilities i have a lot of specific requirements that have to be met in order to even sit down and write in the first place - when those days hit and i CAN write, i can write a lot, but they tend to be few and far between, and combined with my motivation being lost for things very easily bc i'm too hard on myself and rely on ao3 stats and all that...yeah idk why i chose to be a writer lol💀 but i doooo have a plan to try and get some schedules started at least - i have two fics on the 19th? i think to post, then i'd like to update my other three long fics this summer - admittedly my slow updates aren't helped by my brain needing them to be like 10k words each per update, but i rly want to get a lil schedule so i can post several things at once and post more often including the sugar au!;-;