dear future me, did you already healed from your trauma? if it's a yes, congratulations! you get through that phase with "current" me and finally I can prove you that I can do it but if it's a no and you still get those nightmares on your peacefulness it's okay, life is just like that. as long as you're breathing, you will never get peaceful life, because we wish to the death to rest in peace. it's okay. life is just like that. it's okay to fail. it's okay. just keep living and do your best! smile! 😁