n ♡ a fic i wish someone would write for me: frankly the fact that i got 2 glorious chapters of 'ever ever after' by @radicchi0 makes me count myself one of the luckiest ones in the world. my imagination runs wild imagining where things would go from there and it just makes me feel so happy. it's the perfect gift for me—something silly and magical and romantic and wonderful. i'm so grateful!!!!

q ♡ collaborations: i LOVE collaborations. i have always done my best work bouncing ideas off others, and to do that ad infinitum until you have real words on a page to share with others is so meaningful. i've been lucky enough to brainstorm with many incredible writers, and to continue to work on 'pieces of us on the floor' with @skateboardachoo, and to have other ideas floating around in the ether with author friends i love and trust and admire. more existentially it means that the result is a literal melding of two minds, and there is nothing more vulnerable and precious than sharing the products of one's friendship in such a way. it's very special to me.

r ♡ any writers i consider an influence? i am influenced by everything, all the time. but my writing style specifically is influenced very much by the fantasy i read growing up: gail carson levine and shannon hale i owe you my LIFE!!!!!!!!! for magic and power and love and kindness and an openness to learn i owe them everything. i'm inspired by poetry as well, especially as i got older and queerer especially reading trista mateer. and fic wise, one of my oldest internet friends ao3 user brightlight has always inspired me to find the heart and the joy in things, and is the reason why friendship and friend groups feature so heavily in many of my fics. also chris martin of coldplay thank you for feeding my love of sweeping stories and laying them out plain for all to hear.

u ♡ 3 favorite fic authors: this is so extremely tough because i love so much the authors whom i've become friends with over the years. maybe it's a copout to pick ones out of my kfandom(s), but here we are. ao3 user beethechange who wrote buzzfeed unsolved/watcher rpf you have gotten me to read things i never expected to, much less enjoy. such a masterclass in characterization and complex emotions. ao3 user brooklinegirl you are so iconic and write such emotional and longing romance. despite me knowing nothing about the untamed or any thai bls you are nailing it, i can tell. and ao3 hungerpunch your f1 fic and related tumblr thoughts/analysis are so delicious and inspirational thank u for ur service.

k ♡ the angstiest idea i've ever had: i'm of a few minds about this one. on dreamwidth i posted some abandoned wip snippets including an unrequited minghao/yanan (/jun) from 2020 that i thought at the time was as angsty as i could write, but then i wrote 'bury me in armor' and realized there is little angstier than mcd. i have another idea i've mentioned over the years thanks to an old curiouscat anon for a wonshua wandavision au that necessitates more mcd due to the grief theme. i've experienced a lot of grief in my life and reading or writing it can be really beautiful and cathartic in its pain sometimes. hopefully people agree.

thank you for asking about all of this! feel free to reply/follow up if you have any more thoughts ♡

e ♡ if i wrote a sequel

it would have to hinge upon grief and the way we reevaluate ourselves in its unending wake. the overarching idea of bury me in armor, to me, is this concept of seeing the monstrous in yourself as what makes you human, and those human acts which turn people into monsters. grief can be a monstrous thing, whether you're grieving the loss of a life you imagined for yourself or the loss of someone you love. seungcheol at the end of the fic has sort of made his peace with the fact that he is alone in this knowledge, that until minghao he had no one to recognize that in, no one to help him recognize that in himself.

in a sequel he would have to reconcile that emotion, that unimaginable loss and the freedom it came with (at least for minghao, for whom living was torture). the inciting event would have to be something that spurs seungcheol back into action. maybe his love and openness to grey morality lead him to take up his sword on behalf of other monsters -- a circe character, a siren character, another hero even, in whom he would see himself at his worst.

greek mythology was a passion of mine from a young age, and i loved the complexity of these people driven to do huge, grand things in the name of love or death or greed or some combination of them all. exploring that even further would be really incredible i think

this is such an interesting question for a fic that ended so heavily and so firmly in my eyes and really allowed me to look at it differently. thank you!!

sadly i do not (for ships at least, as opposed to groups as a whole). i'm so used to hunting and gathering and cooking my own food that i've inadvertently ended up making threads that serve as compilations or bases for ship dynamics or promoting that ship! wonshua certainly comes to mind.

good resources i use this way are pairing-focused update or archive accounts or "thinker" accounts, but we do need to be wary of these being rpf unfriendly. however, as an archive they are really useful as a jumping-off point to understanding the ways in which people love and interact with each other! it can be really fascinating to compare the public persona (stages, mvs, etc.) to the "private" persona (vlog content, social media, etc.) -- both are constructed and interpreted but they are enlightening!!!!

open call for primers and manifestos though!!!!!!!!!! 🛎️

HOW ABOUT IT. how about friends on the field whose relationship gets markedly worse when they become teammates. who succumb to external pressures to compete and prove themselves and be the best and run everyone else out of bounds and act selfishly, selfishly, selfishly--so selfish that they can't bear if anyone else even looks at them. that only they understand what it's like to live like this (despite 18 other people knowing what it's like,) so they can't be vulnerable with anyone but they can't be vulnerable with each other but they can't be vulnerable with themselves. and everything is repressed and they love and trust each other so much (who keeps promises better than the person trying to keep you down) so they just don't know how much of it all is their decision. they want everything. they don't want anything. they need each other. if i loved you less i'd be able to talk about it more. love will tear us apart dot mp3