sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩

anonnie · 4mo

as expected my deskmate was gagged, he loved it and said chanlix were joe and love from you coded

i haven’t stopped thinking about it all day, this was so good, i know i already said it but the sex scene was so so hot and i love how despite wanting to hurt lix chan folded and still made it pleasurable for him

Lol someone else said that too, but I’ve never even seen the show beyond the first 2 eps back when it first came out.

I’m so glad you liked it so much! The sex scene is definitely one of my favs that I’ve written. Honestly, I originally didn’t want to have Felix cum, but it’s already been established that he cums quickly, so I felt like I had to stick to that. I think Chan’s main intention toward making it pleasurable was just to mindfuck FL a little more. Felix didn’t like it at first, and then even once it started hurting less and he started liking it more, he still didn’t want to admit that to Chan. Based on their relationship and understanding of each other sexually, I think Chan already knew at the beginning that Felix would end up liking it by the end. So basically, here’s Felix pretending to not like it, so what does Chan want to do? Make him cum ofc! ✨

Felix also straight up asked to cum, which we know Chan has a thing for, and Felix often ignores because he likes being ‘punished’ for not asking. So, Felix asking to cum was basically the ultimate submission in that moment, which again Chan loves, therefore there’s no way in hell Chan wasn’t going to let him cum.

Not me putting WAY too much thought into a damn sex scene (though it is dubcon, and all the best dub and non cons are complicated lmao). Anyway, I’m glad you liked the sex scene! Because of its heavy content, not a lot of people want to just say it to me, so I really really appreciate that! Thank you for reading and sending hilarious messages! 💙💙💙

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

Hiii! Just wanted to come here to say i recently discovered your profile and all the works i've read so far are amazing, i love your writing 🩵 I'm really hyped to read the longer fics 🫶 (will come back to talk about them for sure)

Aw thank you~~~ I really appreciate that! 🩵

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

ariel ♡ · 4mo

ah i totally forgot to ask during my comment, but do you have any comments or idea of what happened to jisung? like idk if he and felix will remain friends, if felix will cut him off for being unsupportive of chan, things like that? i only ask because he kind of faded out as felix became increasingly absorbed, so i wonder what could’ve happened in a theoretical future 😭🩷

Everything takes a backseat to Chan. Felix's mind is literally: Chan, Chan, Chan, Chan, work, Chan, Chan, Chan. Though, his work has also fallen aside in favor of Chan.

I like to think they can still be friends because they've been together for so many yrs, but realistically, I can see FL becoming like Chan's little housewife, who has no external interactions (besides maybe book club with Chan's mom) and does art on the side, and I think Felix would genuinely be content with that. I feel like if it came down to it, Jisung would pretend to be accepting of Chan in order to maintain his friendship with FL.

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

your story had me on the edge of my seat til the end, can’t wait to tell my deskmate about it tomorrow 😭 this was so fucked up but also so hot, im glad chan got back to his hot scary abusive controlling gaslighting girlboss self. i also love how despite everything chan still loves felix and can’t live without him either

i know you meant to leave the end open/ambiguous but my perception of the end is that they still stay together bc they still love each other but i also like to think that if they broke up chan wouldn’t cope well and start stalking FL and lose his shit if he saw him with another man given how possessive chan was

also i thought felix was gonna address chan being almost as obsessive with him because it felt like it was felix’ trial when chan was also being abusive and obsessive

Ah you're back lol! Honestly, as I was writing the sex scene, I kept flipping back and forth between 'omfg this is too much for most ppl' and 'why is this the hottest sex scene I've ever written' lmao

We all know how obsessive and strong Felix's love for Chan is, but I think Chan's feelings toward him are almost equal. Chan is just more calculated and externally stable.

The ending is technically ambiguous, but it is meant to lean more toward them staying together. It's ambiguous in that: is Chan going to continue to be abusive? Is Felix going to continue to 'stalk' Chan? Are they still going to move in together in 2 days? Now that they're more aware of each other's tendencies and inner feelings, will they continue to be unhealthy? Will they each try to improve and get help? Etc.

In my opinion, if Felix tried to leave Chan, I think he would pull a FL's dad, and someone would die. He's controlling, violent, aggressive, and in love with Felix to an unhealthy degree, so definitely (at least) FL would die. In the event Chan broke up with FL, I think FL would also die, so............ basically the only timeline FL lives is if they're together lmfao

Felix is kinda stupid in this lol. He ignores most red flags and only sees what he wants to see. He doesn't want to see Chan being a bad or unwell person, he wants to see Chan as perfect. So, it's 'thank god Channie isn't dumping me, I love him so much' instead of 'oh fuck I'm dating an angry, controlling, violent man,' you know? Chan is, like, infinitely more cognizant than Felix.

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

don’t answer if its too much of a spoiler, we know how lix ended up this way but how did chan? like the loss of his father must have been hard on him but other than that it looks like his mom was raising him well and was giving him love. not that growing up with a loving mom cancels trauma out but im just curious. bc it looks like fl is far from chan’s 1st “victim” (even though lix doesn’t see himself that way)

I'm gonna be real with you, I haven't thought about it at all lol. I usually do have some reasoning for these types of things, but I got nothing. Some people are just fucked up, and I guess Chan is one of them lol. No, but there's really no 'cannon' reason for it.

Chan probably has been emotionally abusive in previous relationships, but I definitely think that this is the worst one for him (I imagine all of Felix's previous relationships have been bad and unhealthy. I mean we know he's a serial cheater, so there's that if nothing else.)

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

love your writing, absolutely adoring your current fic. i was wondering if you ever see yourself writing minchan?

I actually did briefly consider Minchan for this one lol. I can definitely see myself writing fics with them as the main couple in the future, but it's not really on the table for now because I feel like I'm not familiar enough with their dynamic yet. I actually only became a stay in Dec/Jan lol

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

we know chan can be abusive and has a short temper but i wanted to know if he could be physically abusive towards lix? (outside of the bedroom) i know domestic violence is a trigger to felix and i wanted to know if this would be the last straw for him if chan were to hit him?

In ch 7, there actually will be a scene like this, so I think it's best I don't say much on it now. Thank you for the message, though!

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

i didn’t really understand the sex shop part in the chapter? was fl’s location glitching? and why was chan being so intense about it?

I thought of it as Chan glancing at it, then immediately freaking out without being sure, if that makes sense. It's right next door to the office supply store, but ofc most people would actually look to confirm the location before calling. Chan is quick-tempered and controlling, so he saw that and immediately assumed FL was trying to cheat on him since the sex shop is rumored to be a hook-up place for men.

Like a lot of abusive partners, Chan doesn't like FL to be places where he 'shouldn't.' That's why he's constantly checking and obsessing over FL's location and harassing him over it. It's not really logical because it's not something a mentally-well person would do.

Hope this was clear! Thank you for the message!

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

i know they’re super toxic and offputting…but the sex scene in chapter 6 was SO DAMN HOT. they’re both controlling and manipulative (in different ways) but UGH something about how chn makes flx beg for praise and denies his requests before giving in finally, all just to toy with him. at this point, flx is aware that chn is gonna do what he wants so he just follows his lead. i think you broke something in my brain especially when chn told him to say he loved him OH MY GOD AND THEN FLX ALWAYS HAS TO SPECIFY THAT HE’S A SLUT ONLY FOR HIM AAAAAAAHHHH so so good.
also flx is so….confusing. i’m sure this is intentional but he contradicts himself all the time. he feels chn moves too fast but is also stalking him…..sir make it make sense. i have no clue how the story will conclude which is so exciting, a lot of plots tend to run stale at this point in a story so i’m excited i have no idea of what comes next.

Not me being like 'wait, what sex scene???' for a sec lol

Honestly, this is surprising! In my mind, this one is like a 'half-sex scene' since it starts in the middle. I was also worried it would seem 'too mean' to some people since FL is begging for praise while Chan usually degrades.

Possible spoiler, but not really imo: Looking back at the scene now that it's been a few days since I wrote it, it's kinda funny because they're both SO IN LOVE but unaware of how deep the other's person love is lol

Felix is absolutely a disaster. To be fair though, he is just recognizing Chan's quickness, but he isn't against it, really. He's mainly just acknowledging it, rather than taking issue with it. Sorry if that wasn't clear in the fic itself!

I'm so glad you like the fic and esp that scene!!! Thank you for reading and sending this to me! ♥

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 4mo

love the story but i still don’t understand the “jisung is a bad friend” tag like yeah at first he was kinda salty but when he’s warning lix about chan being abusive he’s right. like okay he seems possessive and jealous about being “replaced” but other than that is there something i missed or am i also a bad friend for not seeing it djdjdjjd

the chapter is amazing as usual, i kinda feel bad for chan though, im glad lix realised how much damage he did and i hope chan will go back to his hot abusive controlling gaslighting girlboss self

My original plan was for Jisung to be way more unhinged. He was supposed to know about Felix's stalking in detail and encourage it, but I thought that was too unrealistic, so I decided against doing that. I intended to show more of their friendship and history together, but sometimes things don't really play out the way you plan at the beginning.

Though, I still think Jisung (in his current state) is a bad friend. The way he went off on FL towards the beginning is a regular occurrence, hence why FL is so used to not talking to him until he comes back to grovel for it. A lot of things he says are really... terrible. He tells FL to not bother trying to start a relationship because he 'always cheats or scares them away by being crazy,' and that he'll always feel lonely in life no matter what. Imo, he's kinda attempting to fuel FL's depression. FL's obsession with Chan is obviously unhealthy and scary, but for FL, it's like the only positive thing in his life. JS also tells FL that he's just like his dad, which, when it's revealed what he did, is AWFUL.

JS also keeps bringing up FL's traumatic family history, and yes, he also has a traumatic childhood AND he's doing it out of concern (debatably), but it's obviously something FL dislikes. When FL tells JS about the plan of befriending Chan's mom to get closer to him, he encourages it despite it clearly being creepy.

Like most unhealthy friendships, they do have good moments, but (to me, anyway) the bad things are bad enough to overtake the good.

Thank you! In ch 7, Chan is still very much going through it, though, unfortunately lol

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 4mo

anonnie · 5mo

First of all, thank you so much for bringing this work!Your updates are the only thing I look forward to every week!🥺😭🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻But I wonder if Chan knows and condones Felix's stalking and surveillance?This relationship is too dark. I like it so much.😻

Aww thank you sm!!! We're coming up on the ending now, and you'll find the answer to that in the finale. Thank you for reading, I'm glad you're enjoying the story so much! 💙💙💙💙

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 5mo

anonnie · 5mo

i haven’t read the chapter yet because i had to finish an assignment and i had classes today but im so excited for classes to be over so i could go home and read, you got me fucked up making it thru my classes so i could read your fic 😭😭 i even yapped to my deskmate about it and hes also on the edge of his seat 😭😭😭 my deskmate was wondering if you were a boomer bc you mentioned chnlix using fb and also the flat screen part and i mentioned the note where you said u were a 03 liner lmao

LMAOOOO

Tbh I’ve never used Facebook in my life (I’m not really someone big into social media anyway but yk). The reason I chose Facebook as opposed to Instagram is because the Tiktok I based the story on (link on ch 1, but the blocked text in the summary is the transcript of it) mentions Facebook explicitly. It also made sense for Chan’s mom to use Facebook + the book club being a group on there.

THE FLAT SCREEN PART THOUGH I’M SO OFFENDED. TELL YOUR DESKMATE THAT FLAT SCREENS ARE STILL PRETTY NEW OKAY? I don’t know if it’s just my family, but a lot of my fav movies as a young child were purchased on VHS at thrift stores by my grandmother lol

This isn’t helping my case, but, I think in the new chapter, but dw not a spoiler, FL is talking to Chan on the phone, and you know those old handheld phones? They were bigger than smartphones, so you could hold them in between your shoulder and cheek. I WROTE FELIX DOING THAT INTO THE SCENE, THEN IN EDITING I (sadly, because the visual is 10/10) REMOVED IT BECAUSE IT DOESN’T WORK.

I’m only 20 😐 I hate it here lmfao but anyway, I’m glad you like the fic!!!!

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 5mo

anonnie · 5mo

totally normal and not obsessed with the stalker fic (lie), but it’s just so catered to my interests it’s insane? like i love a typical romance as much as the next person but i love a toxic relationship or when i really have to think about a fic. and chanlix here are absolutely insane and thought provoking with their actions! safe to say you’ve driven me insane and i can’t wait to see how it ends, but also i totally don’t want it to be over. thank you sm!!!!

AHHH thank u!!! Tbh I'm totally the same! I like normal romance ofc, but the toxic ones >>>>> they're just so much more interesting lol

Thank you for reading!! I'm so happy you're enjoying it so far!!! ♡♡♡

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 5mo

anonnie · 5mo

im so obsessed with your fic, you get me at the edge of my seat every single time 😭 i know things are going downhill for the both of them but i have a question, you don’t have to answer if its too much of a spoiler but despite everything that will happen will chn’s mom be okay? i know no one’s gonna kill her lmao but i wonder if she’s gonna get suspicious

LOL this is such a sweet question???? Not at all what I expected haha

Honestly, Chan's mom doesn't really feature much from now on. I plan on having one more scene with her (though it may not happen, who knows), and I'm still debating on whether or not Chan will be weird in front of her.

It's not really an answer I know, but that's all I got for you currently lol. I'm glad you enjoy the fic! 🩵

sana ૮ . . ྀིა⁩ · 5mo

anonnie · 5mo

Hi, I just read the four chapters you have written of your stalker felix story.
I love it even though they make me feel a little weird, like I don't know who of the two is crazier, even his relationship with jisung is so weird, also, just like felix I don't notice how weird Chris is when he apologizes until I read the comments of the others hahaha
Anyway, I really like your fic, I'm curious about how this will end.

Honestly, as the writer, I don't know who is crazier either lol they're both so... yikes, Jisung too.

Most things Chan says/does are a red flag in some way, minus maybe the first date. Like the necklace, for example: giving someone you just started dating a gift is weird and puts the other person in an uncomfortable position (making them feel like they owe you something in return), BUT ALSO giving it to FL at that moment so he could see him wear it during sex is a little possessive, which again, it's way too early for. Another example is Chan constantly (and clearly intentionally) showing up much earlier than expected to pick FL up, it's a weird exercise of control imo. Chan tends to control, lovebomb and (debatably, since FL is kinda unreliable) gaslight.

But yeah, thank you for submitting this! I'm glad you like the fic!!! ♥