I think "loathe" is such a strong word. It'd be too deep in meaning to accurately describe what I'm feeling. But HAHAH I completely got the question. I'm familiar with a certain sensation of love-hate towards a certain form of affection. For me it's AoS. While I'm happy and feel loved when someone serve me out of affection, the feelings come together with guilt and insecurity.

Guilt for when I accept their AoS, I immediately feel indebted to them, and wanting to repay their gentle kindness at any cost and sometimes it's not so as positive as it sounds. I am easily feeling indebted due to the lack of faith in my own self-values, leading to a sense of "I'm not that good, I'm so undeserving of all of these." That sense, is the insecurity manifested, no?

Do I hate it? Not really. Just struggling to receive it properly

Does that count as love language? I think so. Just need to work on myself more, re-establish my self esteem, and be able to love more healthily :)