this is EVERYHTING. please allow me to run with it for a bit here. because your gurl chee was a big nerd in med school and i basically explained the entirety of the head and neck anatomy to my friends because our professor sucked (and because i had all the cranial nerves memorized bc as mentioned above, i'm a nerd)

so yeah, i like to think of jisung doing just that. being a nerd. atlas open on the desk next to him and very blushing minho sitting opposite him with his shirt off because jisung is explaining so diligently. and it's fine. it's cool. jisung touching him. tracing his tendons and muscles and fixing him with very focused eyes. jisung's fingers making him shiver. his murmured voice right next to his ear. minho being so turned on it hurts but it's so stupid because jisung is being a helpful friend, right? (not exactly because even though jisung is explaining, it's hard for him to miss minho's reaction and he's enjoying it a little too much). fast forward to them making out and their study session completely forgotten except for the time they start naming their favorite muscles and nerves on each other's body (also another thing yours truly often did). and yeah.

oh gosh honey this truly means a lot to me. i was having a conversation with a friend yesterday that made realise that some of the things i don't prefer reading aren't as unheard of as i originally thought. and it made me think that these things should be said on the tl and not just in private conversations. just as a reminder that it's okay to like what you like and avoid what you want to avoid. i think a lot of us sometimes forget that fanfiction is supposed to be a comfort place; characters you already know and love, familiar tropes. there's absolutely nothing wrong with trying to expand your horizon, of course. but doing so out of pressure of missing out and wanting to fit in with the crowd isn't the best way to go about it imo. and i'm guilty of doing that sometimes so yeah, again, a reminder that we all need from time to time. thank you for the message honey<3

hello honey<3 buckle in because this is probably gonna be a long one lol.

well. honestly. i don't think i have a lot of pet peeves when it comes to the formatting of a fic. i've seen people who are irked by using all lowercase for example, or justifying or not justifying the text, or using '~' in dialogue. but i think i'm mostly fine with all of that. i have my preferences of course, but i don't think any of this makes me pause or stop reading a fic for example.

my pet peeves are mostly about the writing itself. and those are (as are all pet peeves) entirely personal and me saying i don't particularly enjoy them doesn't mean anyone who writes them is at fault of course (with a few exceptions lol) but you asked my opinion so here goes~
(keeping this about minsung fics because it's what i mostly read)
my biggest pet peeves is when someone writes minsung as tools rather than characters. it makes them seem very one dimensional and far from their real selves.
i think it's in part because i don't usually read a lot of pwps, but my pet peeve is when their personalities outside of the bedroom seems to be nothing but an extension of their sexual roles. and this is not about their roles in the bedroom at all. i've read and enjoyed all sorts of different dynamics for them. i just don't like it when it seems like they think with their dicks throughout the day lol. like when jisung is painted as a brainless incompetent constantly anxious baby who just wants to be fucked. or when minho is written as a sadist (rather than tsundere which some people seem to miss that it's about not being good at showing the immense amount of care and love you have and hiding it behind a nonchalant front). i'm also not the biggest fan of either of them being painted as (previously thought they were straight until they realised they wanted the other) or when they are written as if they do not love the other (equally or at all) because seriously...have you SEEN how down bad they both are? unreal levels honestly...
and yeah. also just any exaggeration or overly stereotypical characterization of a certain trait and making it their whole personality (loser/nerdy/cocky/pretty/anxious...)
it's not that i'm against any of these tropes per se (again, with exceptions) but it just irks me when it is made to be the one and only character trait, especially when the aim is a full fledged story and not just a ficlet or pwp. i wouldn't feel intrigued to read through a longer fic if the characters don't seem like people but rather a tool to get themselves or the other dicked down lol, that's my main thing i guess
(i did not mention AUs or tropes or specific tags that I outright avoid because this is a different thing.) and yeah this might've been not what you were expecting but i hope you enjoyed this longish answer<3

oh gosh, honey. this is... i don't think you realise how much i needed to read this. i'm just so thankful you decided to share your experience with me because it just resonated with me so much, and after a while of me battling with myself for feeling like i'm being overdramatic about this, it's nice to know someone understands.

it's not nice, however, to know that you went through this. gosh. it's a horrible mixture of a bad pressuring environment and very, very perfect rich soil in our brains i guess lmao. and it pains me to know that it reached a point for you where it stopped you for writing for so long! i hope that doing these steps now has been helping you enjoy it a little more now, and feel less pressure. i have good self control i think, but i'm not sure i would stick to not reading comments or checking stats. i'm still a little too anxious and require some reassurance from time to time. it's the same for me with not being a harsh critic of myself, but still, sometimes the good ol' fella (my brain) is my worst enemy lol.

i also relate so much about the thing with asking your friends not to tell you if they've read your stuff. i've driven myself up the wall many times just thinking about this, and it's the worst kind of pressure for me honestly. i appreciate it so much when someone says something kind to me about what i've written, but i hate the doubt that comes with it about its sincerity, and the guilt that follows about doubting your friends. and so on and so on...

again, i thank you so much for sending this. i really needed to hear this i think :') i've been feeling pretty bad mentally lately and i know it's a big reason why i've been struggling with writing more than usual. and i've considered making some changes to combat that (some of them very drastic lmao) and i just don't want to make such a decision while i'm at such a bad state. so i will just...let it marinate for a while. and come back to your words when i need to :') thank you so much for this darling. i hope you're enjoying the process or writing and feeling more freedom with it now<3

hey honey<333 thank you so much for taking the time to read this baby🥹 I'm very happy you liked it<3

and sigh,,, I'm gonna be honest with youm I've thought about how that sort of scene would play out multiple times. because you're right, writing it with their specific dynamic would be so nice. full of love. one of my favourite things to write (in this au or not). dreamy sigh. but i feel like adding more ti this story would take away from it? Like, as you could probably tell lmao it's a camboy au with very little focus on actual camboy stuff. and writing a sequel feels to me a bit... out of tune with the pacing and atmosphere of what's already written in a way? I don't know if that makes sense. And don't apologise for mentioning this! I'm actually happy that reading this fic made you want more from that universe it's a great compliment! And honestly for every story i write there's a larger timeline in my mind of scenes that happen before and after what takes place in the fic itself lol. So who knows! It's unlikely but I'm still thinking about them and the chances of me revisiting them are definitely not zero.

Thank you again for this lovely message<3