I've been thinking about these two a bit lately so you can have some of my crazy disjointed thoughts and ideas I might or might not put on paper one day… As always with them [cw: kidnapping, torture, mention of SA, self-harm and suicide, forcefemme, incel shit etc…]:

• Sydney only giving Shiloh milk to drink because surely he would believe the common myth that it increases oestrogen AND the superstition/meme you see in manga that it will make your boobs bigger because of course he would… If he's dumb enough he might alternate between cow's milk and soy milk for variety. Shiloh hates it but it actually turns out to be kind of a godsend when Sydney withdraws food as a punishment; that's a lot of yummy nutrients he still gets to have.
• Maybe surprisingly, but Sydney really insisting on not having sex (read: penetrative sex) with Shiloh because he wants it to be mutual and special and romantic so so bad, holding hands kissing missionary style. Also him often bringing up how ungrateful Shiloh is because at least he's not raping him (the bar is in fucking hell).
• Rewarding Shiloh when he plays his girlfriend role well with comforting junk food, getting that high sugar high salt high fat shit for extra positive association. It feels nice to hug, kiss, cuddle and say corny stupid shit when it's followed by delicious greasy pizza with all the toppings you want or the comforting bite of that bacon cheeseburger with jalapeños and extra burger sauce when you were fed only rice crackers and milk for a while. Even just a fucking pop tart, a handful of cheezies or a funsize chocolate bar for smaller things hitting like a truck.
• Shiloh sleeping in a dog crate Syndey got off of craigslist… It being not big enough to stretch his legs or sit up comfortably because it had to fit under Sydney's bed, which he managed because he had a crawlspace under it (a bit like those bookshelf beds I've seen floating around that look like, super hazardous) his uncle built him when he was a preteen, with a little curtain in front of it for ✨extra privacy✨. From cry corner to escape the world to girlfriend bedroom… Even if it's not like sleeping together, Sydney finding great comfort in sleeping above him (Shiloh not so much).
• Sydney's attendance at college starting to suffer after he abducts Shiloh because he would rather spend time with him but still having to go avoid too much suspicion so he gags and lock Shiloh into the crate for the whole day. This leading to Shiloh starting to beg Sydney more and more not to go to college because he starts dreading being locked into that small dark space all day, maybe even developing full on claustrophobia after a few months of this shit. Naturally Sydney would delude himself (helped by Shiloh agreeing to anything not to get the crate) into believing it's heartwarming that his girlfriend wants them to spend more time together ♡ why not stay home one more day to play video games and watch anime while cuddling with his girlfriend, yay ♡
• Shiloh trying to create an opportunity to escape by asking Sydney to let him sleep in his bed without restraints or the chain and getting false hopes when he agrees only to drug him with so much sleeping meds he's functionally unable to stand up even if he tried…
• Sydney spending his big boy allowance to buy cute outfits for Shiloh, shoplifting at hot topic when his uncle starts asking why he needs money for clothes so soon already because women's clothes is surprisingly expensive. Using his own black eyeliner to doll him up and buying cheap flavored sticky gloss at Claire's to cover his chapped lips, all while he has gone unwashed for weeks to keep him grateful when he does allow him to shower, happily scrubbing him of all the grime.
• Shiloh managing to choke Sydney and really, really trying to kill him but ultimately failing because he has lost so much muscle mass and strength from lack of exercise and shitty nutrition. Sydney getting out of his reach and instead of getting angry crying his eyes out, nearly more hysteric than Shiloh because he's tried so hard to get him to like him and yet he tried killing him again. Him leaving the basement for what feels like hours only to return with a knife and fresh scars blabbering about how maybe there is no hope and how he's going to kill both of them and Shiloh scrambling to change his mind and try to convince him not to kill him by telling him he does love him and he didn't know what went over him and begging to give them another chance, even resorting to trying to soothe him through sexual attention. Who knows how it does end up for them there, we'll see when I make up my mind（◕ω◕）

Well since I mostly do art and only a little writing I don't really have tips for it but I think you should go for it wether or not there are other eyeballs on it, eventually if you tag things it should fall in front of someone who's bound to enjoy it. That's pretty much what I did with my OCs and my art, I started posting my art at 11 on DeviantArt and I just kept doing it until now, the fact that there are people interested in it is not much more than algorithmic luck.
Just keep wherever you are posting your writing clean of personal stuff and unrelated memes and use the tools given to you by the website (tags, groups, etc). Joining some OC writing groups or challenges and interacting with other OC writers can help too. Oh yeah and resist the temptation to use generative AI to do visuals for your writing of course, if you would like some visuals to maybe help catch attention to your writing be cool and commission that stuff, use the sims, take pictures, make montages, etc… But writing can totally stand on it's own. Maybe include a little out of context paragraph you like and think might draw people in with the summary so they can get a taste of your writing style.

I touched on it before but Lesley has quite a nebulous concept of feelings/relationships, he pretty much had only one "friend" most of his childhood and what happened with his father left him quite divorced from his self, which made building new relationships complicated.

For Elov, he feels strong empathy and some kind of fucked up possessiveness on his right to be the one to put an end to his perceived suffering. Is this love ? Is this friendship ?? Who knows, it's very strong and very confused, even more after Elov came onto him hard and added sex to the mix, a first for him and definitely something that latched onto his craving for touch. Now he's unsure if Elov does want to die and on top of that he knows he'll lose this physical attention if he does kill him, but at the same time if anyone has to do it he wants to be the one.

I do see what you mean about seeing him maybe having feelings for Wallace. I think in a way despite their relationship starting with Lesley hating Wallace the fact that it didn't start on a basis of befriending him only to "liberate" him helped a more organic relationship to bloom (even though Wallace gets pretty suicidal after his little reunion with Elov, since Elov specifically told Lesley not to kill him this keeps Lesley from starting to think of it as needing to free Wallace from this suffering, if anything at first he sees it as payback for what he did to Elov. His anger put a lid on his empathy). Wallace definitely does develop some romantic feelings for Lesley as time goes, he grows fond of the guy and I think this genuine appreciation does bleed through in Lesley's own feelings for Wallace.

I realize it's a bit like. Elov and Lesley's bond is based on their worst toxic feelings, feeding Elov's love of the thrill and Lesley's hunger for affection. Wallace and Lesley's has organically grown by getting to know each other despite a more than rocky start. In both situations they do have some sort of feelings involved, but it's very different.

We went to Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka, Koyasan, hakone and we did day-trips to Nara and Kobe.

I really recommend staying a night or two in koyasan to visit , it's very remote but you can get there by train from Osaka and there are tons of beautiful temples to visit as well as the Okuno-in cemetary which is breathtaking. We slept in a shukubo (which is a temple which you can sleep in) and it was well worth the price for the beautiful scenery, the nice hot bath, the buddhist meditation and the traditional monk meals. There are a lot of temples who offer this service but we personally stayed in the Rengejo-in temple (but if you want to visit the cemetary during the night, which is a possiblity, I would recommend a temple closer to it since they tend to close their doors at 9 and the cemetary is quite big)

I also really enjoyed Arashiyama in Kyoto, the monkey mountain is well worth it if you like animals (it's one of the rare places in japan where they aren't exploited sadly) and there are a lot of cute cafes along the way (the main road can get a little overwhelming with tourists, but there are more breathing room than in say Gion, you can easily find less traveled streets that are charming). Not the most japanese, but I really loved Kiki's tea room there: it's a very small tea room with a charming decor, delicious scones and a huge variety of some of the best teas I've had the chance to taste.
Another Kyoto spot I enjoyed is the Maruyama park (and the Ikkyu-an cafe there) but an obscure place I really recommend is the Moan cafe on Yoshida mountain ! We happened on it by total chance and it's a little bit of a trekk there but gosh is it charming as fuck.

I really like cafes as you can see… But cafe aside, I really recommend you visit nakano broadway in Tokyo (to me it's more worth than Akihabara if you are looking for goodies, starting from the second floor there's tons of both vintage and recent second-hand goods). I also really enjoyed the Shinjuku Marui Honkan (OIOI) department store in shinjuku, just lots of good store there and when I went a few indie fashion brands. SPEAKING OF if you are interested in alt/indie fashion LaForet department store in Harajuku is a MUST GO, the lower floors have tons of small creators shop it was super interesting.

As far as Osaka goes, it was one of my favorite place we stayed at ! I just recommend walking around the different shōtengai there, depend on which one you visit there are really different kinds of shops/vibes. If you like stationery and cats I recommend checking out 'U-ARTS', it's a small shop with tons of cat-themed stationery and some writing/art supplies too, really cute. Otherwise, it's really a great city to get lost in because there are tons of cool streets with small shops and great food.

The deer park in Nara is really cute and worth the trip, the city itself is quite charming but I don't have a particular recommendation either. Kobe we went for personal reasons (my sibling was born the day of the earthquake so we went to the Kobe Earthquake Memorial Museum, which was interesting but is not a must see either if you don't have a particular interest in disasters and disaster prevention) but chinatown there was quite interesting ! Hakone is a great destination if you want a little break from the big city, there are tons of ryokans with plein-air onsen there if you can afford it and it's nice to walk along the lake, more of a chill destination though.

Hope this gives you a few ideas ! Honestly there's tons of places that looked cool and we couldn't go to so I really recommend exploring, you'll often find something cool without even searching much !