Probably dejection. Because I chose a path that wasn't easy. And call me a fool for trying despite that.

Amor/Desamor

Finding out I am loved during prime intimate time with my loved one.

Frustration - its sometimes so overwhelming I'll cry while being angry, its kinda complex as there are lots of emotions in that mix (like guilt to get angry)

One time I was asleep or half asleep and the image of a blender on a black background popped into my head out of nowhere, and I felt the most intense feeling of dread, and the most intense feeling of any kind, that I've ever felt. I don't know why that happened.

Squirting.

Church things aside, I think it was some form of peaceful pleasure while listening to music