just an internet nerd who loves 1) to write and 2) this gay little emo band called xdinary heroes.
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conkwest · 5d
hi dizzy!! how are you
hiii! 😄 I'm not too bad! by which I mean I've been losing my mind over the content we've gotten recently and consumed by this figure skating au I'm writing and trying desperately to finish it so I can start posting it... but it refuses to end 🥲 we'll get there. I hope you're doing well too!!
mysterious cloaked figure · 2mo
Hey dizzy so like, random, kinda unserious ramble/rant incoming but tbh i genuinely think the “assuming the idols sexuality debate” is kinda pointless because if you ask me, im pretty they’re all (if not most of them) sexually confused in some way
because ??? Like?? you’re literally a kpop idol, you’re constantly surrounded by hot people all the time, and ur telling me some of these people have never had any internal battles in some way?? That they’re 100% straight?? Im sorry but if i was an idol and i had to work side by side with b4ng ch@n and yeji constantly i would never make it out of there alive.
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help this is so funny 😭😭 and so real, like I'm one of the most aroace people you could ever meet but I think even I would be questioning that fact if I had to share a space with some of these idols... I mean, as it is there are some idols (cough dreamcatcher cough) who have me questioning myself from time to time 😔
although on a more serious note, I've only ever seen "dOn'T aSsUmE iDoLs' SeXuAlItY" used by people who then turn around and enforce heteronormativity onto those same idols so really it's "straight until proven queer", which is a zero-sum game because it's just not probable in such a conservative country/industry... so personally I prefer to assume that they're all queer until proven straight 🫡
mysterious cloaked figure · 2mo
Omg gaon and jooyeon spotted by a pier in California together… which could mean nothing🫢 (there may have been a staff to keep guard but lets just ignore that lol) (oh and for context in case you didn’t see but a fan encountered j00seok in a pier somewhere in cali😭😭 the rest of the heroes were there too but they were separated afaik cuz another villain spotted the other four later on)
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good to see you again my gourd-geous friend 🙏 I did indeed see that, the LUCK some people have and also the nerve to actually approach them because I personally I would be hyperventilating at the very thought 😭😭 no but the first thing I thought when I saw it was ohh jooseok cali date 🫢 and then I spotted their manager(/chaperone). but weren't the other four seen WITHOUT jooseok later on? 🤔 THAT could mean nothing but it could also mean not nothing iykwim
mysterious cloaked figure · 2mo
hi hi! this... might be a weird specific detail to ask, but. did you have a particular color in mind for 🦊's jacket, in Of Cold Nights and Starlight? (It's one of my favorites, it's very sweet and the tension is... gentle? and I think about it a lot. Thank you for sharing it :D )
hello! oh wow that IS oddly specific but honestly I can't fault you for it haha. it's been nearly a year and a half since I wrote it so I'm not sure what colour I had in mind, if any, but reading back the scene where it's first mentioned, my brain is telling me beige? 🤔 anyway, thank you for loving that fic, it may have been a while since I wrote it but it's still very special to me 🥹💕
mysterious cloaked figure · 3mo
AHHH I love the ending for feylight 🥹💖 I’m happy it all worked out! 💕
I really love the fic! Thank you for sharing it and all your hard work! 😊
mysterious cloaked figure · 3mo
Wow what a coincidence 😅 sending that ask when a new chapter was coming out!
Well the chapter was amazing! I’m nervous for gunil 😥 but I trust that things will work out! I really love the universe you’re created and would love to know more about everyone! 😁💕
Since I’m still really new to the fandom I was wondering if you have a good recs for fics? Or accounts to follow on twitter? 💖
a happy coincidence though hahaha. I'm glad you enjoyed it!! but yes don't worry lol it's always a happy ending from me <3 I do have tentative plans to write more in the Feylight series but we'll see how it pans out 🥰
hm! fic recs! honestly since I started writing for the fandom I haven't been much of a reader, although it's also true that I started and continue to write for the fandom because no one else really writes the kind of content I most want to read 😭 buuut if you're into sickeningly in love jooseok smut you need look no further than chanshines (@chanshines_ao3 on twt, she's also an amazing artist!). dandyru_hi (same user on both ao3 and twt) has a pretty diverse oeuvre of xh fics, I particularly really liked her most recent jooseok fic "the prince's pest" (archiveofourown.org/works/55666081). oh and of course there's Fangirl_Phia3 on ao3! her ongoing fic "The Space Between Stars" (archiveofourown.org/works/43323123/chapters/108900513) is amazing and also her fic "Four Billion Miles" (archiveofourown.org/works/52036630) (that she wrote for me as part of a fic exchange~) is absolutely beautiful. another fic that comes to mind is "Hold my breath and let it bury me" by MVforVictory (archiveofourown.org/works/36581248), which to me is like... a classic. jooseok + hurt/comfort is my bread and butter.
as for twitter accounts... 🤔 obviously if you don't already follow @dailyjooseok you should~ otherwise I guess it kinda depends what kinds of content you want on your tl? like if you're looking for shipping accs, fansites, artists, translation accs, etc...
mysterious cloaked figure · 3mo
Hello! I just wanted to tell you I recently discovered your fics and love them! Feylight is so good! I’m excited for the next chapter! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
Also really love the pjo au!
conkwest · 4mo
your feylight hj is so alluring and i’m probably mental for thinking so. thank you
mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
HELLOOOOO i really REALLY love your fics thank you for feeding us jooseoknation. i stumbled upon this reels on instagram and the first thought that came into my mind was you! can you please turn this into a new fluffy fic?? thank you in advance!! i love you dizzy villain!! 🥹❤️🤍
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C7sfoEjI66G/?igsh=MXRhbW9lamVxeW81cQ==
HIII aaaahh thank you so much!! it's truly my pleasure tbh, if I'm cooking for myself anyway I might as well share 🫡💕 hmmmm I think the subtitles on that reel might have a bit of a mistranslation, since I'm fairly certain ji was referring to an incident from their trainee days (I've actually referenced it in a couple of my fics haha, he first mentioned it during livelock era! here: https://x.com/jooyeonsfan/status/1718314892183359617) and citing that as the way that he and joo started to get close because joo opened up to him so now they can rely on each other equally 🥹 I have actually been planning to write a drabble based on something jiseok said in one of his ments from their concerts in april about going to the others (he mentioned jooyeon first) to feel better when he's having a hard time 🥺 buut if you want joo angst (...joongst) I'd be happy to add that to my list? lmk! I love you too, anon~ 🥰
mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
YIPEEEE NEW FIC TY FOR THE FOOD - 🎃
mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
Hope ur having fun in japan :DD
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mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
helllloooo i just wanted to say how ur AUs always restore my will to live ₍^ >ヮ<^₎ .ᐟ.ᐟ
mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
https://x.com/gaonfansite/status/1788959030045458804?s=46
Dizzy i cant do this anymore i am actually broken in and outside like im so done with j00seok im DONE
like what do you mean youve never had a fight??? Because you’re afraid of hurting the other??? So you don’t even consider that possibility???? Oh my god??? I cant they just love each other so much unconditionally and if we tie this back to their first interactions to when j00 dragged j1seok into the bathroom to seek comfort, to ji calling jxxyeon a ray of light and ji straight up saying I LOVE YOU TO HIM IN FRONT OF THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE TO SEE IN OVERTURE??/?/?? This is love beyond what we see in fiction and legends and baby THIS IS REAL TRUE RAW ASS SHIT
and atp? the fanfic writes themselves. BYE
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honestly it's not surprising to me that they've never fought, I think it's just because they're so in tune with one another that they really just have nothing TO fight about... hurting each other probably isn't even a concern because they know the other understands them implicitly 😔 they're literally just soulmates like no one can dispute that... platonic, romantic, doesn't even matter. they simply belong together and that's that!! 😭😭 it's insane to witness but we can only be grateful 🙏 the fanfic literally does write itself I've been saying this the whole time! it's not me I'm just a conduit for the Words! (also sorry this took me a bit to get to, I'm in japan rn 😭)
mysterious cloaked figure · 4mo
VAMPIRE/ANGEL (sort of) J00SEOK CAFE AU????? Oh you spoil us dizzy /lh
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mysterious cloaked figure · 5mo
Nooo but like if hes fr just feeding into that audience why stop at just j00seok?? (just realized I haven’t been censoring mb) like why just them specifically? Wouldn’t you wanna do that with others too? Like with j00min or jvngji? So you could rile up the audience more?? Like yeah they’re the most popular ok sure but still?? Idk its such an odd choice and i cant stop thinking about it😭😭sorry im just brainrotting 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫hvhannie is a very interesting creature
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LMAO no worries friend this is very entertaining to me! he really is an inchresting creacher and I think maybe he's just... a monoshipper 😔 OR... he's really trying to tell us something 🫢🫢🫢 (/j... unless...??) ngl the first thing I always think about is that video of the jooseok proposal from last era with hyeongjun clapping in the background, something about that is so funny to me 😭😭 and there's a particular photo I'll post in the reply to the twt post for this that is really... meme material. and don't worry too much about the censoring haha I just do it for the twt post to keep the anti-shipping crowd off my ass :')