i wish i’ll grow into a parent who is near to my children, physically and mentally. i wish i’ll grow into a parent that causes my children to know less about how loneliness feels like, that they think of me the first thing everytime they’re in need of something; whether it’s anything i can afford, materialistically, or simply… a companion. i’ll work on being a parent whose companion is always present that my children wouldn’t wish for it upon somebody else. i want to be there for them before anyone else, i want to be aware of what they’re up to before anyone else, i want to tell them beautiful things before anyone else; i just want to appear to them the very first thing, before anyone else. i’ll keep up with trends, not to join in, but to be enough for me to keep up with my children that it’s comfortable to make myself their friends, and i’ll make sure to learn their needs throughout the time so they feel content, because yet again—i don’t want my children to wish for contentment upon somebody else they barely know. i will keep working on my well-being too, as well as on my career and growth, because they’re gonna feel good to have a mother they can be proud of, a mother they can always look up to; a mother whose trace they can follow accordingly. there’s also something that’s just as important: i will be a parent who is wise and careful on choosing the other parent for my children, because my children deserve the best guidance of a father and a beautiful, harmonious growth. even if it’ll take me years to find the other half of mine to start this dream family with, even if i’ll be 30, 35, 37, or 40… even when people start rushing me to go off and find a man already… i am gonna work my hardest to prepare for the best and safest growth for my children, and i won’t ever start before it’s thoroughly ready. there’s just so much dreams and hopes whenever i think of what kind of parent i aspire to be, and my heart feels full everytime i think of it. i have so much love and adoration for my future children, and i’ll make sure to welcome them after a great preparation—never before that. 🤍