alright, not kareem. first of all, i apologize for accidentally deleting your ask i was trying to re-type my response but well… on another note, he is what you could say the perfect personification of gentle sunday morning sea breeze and freshly baked bread. not because of his au but how everytime you see him around he’s a breath of fresh air that immediately brings comfort when you have him around. he gives off a vibe of a friend that you had known for a long time, despite briefly only interacting with him. he is one of the people that lifts my days up immediately even solely because of his presence. he is a joy to be around. his radio shows are one of my favorite things in this little space on the internet. keep doing what you do, you are quite a cool person with beautiful mind, and lovely words. i’d still would like to get to know you more.

i’ve recently watched oda sa wala (ode to nothing). it’s a filipino indie film about a woman who’s runs a morgue barely keeping it afloat financially all the while trying to survive on a daily, fighting the feeling of loneliness and isolation in the old and dingy spanish era house surrounded by death all the time and grief for the loss of her mother with his father’s presence barely being there in her life. a corpse of an old lady was dropped into her funeral home one day and as a sign of good luck out of superstition. she keeps it by her side. literally. you’d see why it’s called ode to nothing while the film goes on. the gallow’s humor being sprinkled on it with the brilliance of the actress made the film so interesting to me. it’s available for free with subtitles on youtube if you want to check it out.

i know this isn’t a question or anything. but i’m kind of confused with what you’re saying. both of it being a preparation of the relationship and also giving the person you are courting could also be true. but it doesn’t necessarily mean that you’ll end up together. but, the answer always lies on the one that is being courted. the person who is courting is the one who wanted to express their feelings through that process after all.

the guilt that you are talking about in the person who courting the other person should be contemplated properly then. because, in my perspective you could’ve processed everything first yourself before fully committing in courting that other person and think if you are merely getting carried away by the moment. because even then it requires full commitment since you are handling somebody else’s feelings not only yours.

on the side of being courted, you shouldn’t let yourself be pressured into being with that person. courting is after all to see if after they really devoted to you and willing to go through all these hopes with genuine sincerity just to be with you. better not prolong the connection and give your answer to them if the guilt is eating you up. don’t let others dictate how you feel or be burdened by such responsibility of saying yes. the answer solely lies on you.

either way, do not decide in the spur of the moment.

wag ka na. joke. blaze, the man who i said i’ll be his first fan when he drops his guitar cover but i kind of just missed the chance. we’ve been talking for quite a while now, and as much as hurts my pride to say, he does resemble the daylight. on how graces people with his soft beams, and how easily it is for him to make people feel at ease. he is as his name suggests, but his warmth is something that won’t burn you but rather a strange comfort that graces your presence. the personification of daylight, the boy who swallowed the sun. i like his music taste despite being a bit different from mine. he makes me smile a lot, i don’t know if i’m just easy to please honestly. i do wish sometimes i can out-rizz him but he just catches me off-guard. it’s quite amusing. i do know that half of our conversations are mostly about genshin, but i do hope to get to know you more. your himbo persona doesn’t fool me you’re an aeronautics engineer. tsk tsk.