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Hello, just wanted to give you the heads up since they left a reply to ur eds tweet that @/ghost_purr made a tweet mocking aaron bushnell's death and haven't addressed it yet: https://x.com/ghost_purr/status/1762069453875876153
oh yikes thank you for letting me know, I've gone and blocked them now
ur twt profile picture is ai?
NOOOOOOOO I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE BUT NOW LOOKING AT IT THERE'S SO MUCH FUCKED UP THE TEACUP HAS LIKE 3 HANDLES NOOOOOOOOOO damnit now I have to find a new one. thanks for letting me know! hate it here!!!!
retrospring closing use strawpage is cutesey
yeah I've been prepping trying to figure out where to make a new one since curiouscat's privacy settings wanting access to my email freaked me out the last time I tried making one 😬 thanks for the recommendation!
I know who you are. I know what you’re doing. It is never going to work.
forgot to sign into my retrospring for a while and saw this LOL. what. what am I doing. genuinely bc honestly at this point even I don't fucking know what I'm doing
Retrospring closing- does this mean everyone’s going to go back to Curious Cat? Lol
see the main reason I never used it is because it wants direct access to your twitter account and that felt icky
cis person claims to be a trans ally/trans feminist
zero mention or advocation for trans men, transmascs, or nb people
im so tired and i hate how this legitimate critique of certain allies' blindspots is misconstrued as taking away from transfems and trans women's issues.
I feel ya. I suggest we be more vocal and annoying about it 🤷 fuck what people think. the whole goal of that type of rhetoric is to try to get you to shut up. you don't even have to start arguing with them, either. you can just laugh at it, go "that's a ridiculous opinion, anyways as I was saying--" like that meme with the thumbs up people huddled up in a circle. you do not owe anyone your emotional labor to prove why you deserve to have a place in feminism!!
wait till you find out there are trans people who write AND enjoy omegaverse, me included
no offense but. like. do you think I am not one of these people or something??? where are people getting the idea that I'm anti-omegaverse or something? huh???
I feel like the situation with Imane Khelif being transvestigated by multiple transphobes and stuff, is her being subjected to anti-transmasculinity and transmisogyny. Of course i feel like the incitement of it is due to anti-Blackness/racism, especially as the features they keep inciting as evidence feels more so like phrenologizing features that would otherwise look normal on white cis women bodies, and that i think other trans people, especially white, should discuss this as more than just a trans issue. But even so, the way they're discussing her biology and body hits really close to home the ways I've had my femininity questioned growing up.
With some i've seen using her growing up tomboy as proof of 'actually being a boy' i feel like the ways they've been accusing her, it feels like criticisms levied at transmasculines, only changing the conclusion to be drawn that she's a trans woman to fit the terf narrative.
Asking because i want to know if my thoughts make sense, i think my thoughts can in large part explained away as both anti-transmasculinity and transmisogyny having roots in misogyny but since terfs and transphobes have put it forth as a 'trans issue', it's got me thinking why Imane and not a white athlete
yep, I think you're right on the money with that observation. gender is heavily racialized and I think it's a perfect example of all of the above. one of the key complaints a lot of people have with TME/TMA terminology is that the racialized nature of gender means Black cis women are at a much higher risk of being mistaken for a trans woman and, as trans people have become more prevalent in the news, a lot of cis women have spoken up about being victims of transmisogyny in public. because what is considered "feminine" is shaped by white supremacy, anyone who doesn't fit the white ideal are subject to extra scrutiny over their gender presentation.
of note, the anti-transmasculinity of the way she's been treated over being tomboyish & dressing in a more "masc" way (literally just wearing a suit in one picture that's been going around, which maybe would not be seen as masculine if she were white). aaaaaaaall of it is connected as bigotry often stems from similar sources. and I've seen some people groan at that concept because it means we need to consider more complex ways these things all interact, but it's necessary to break these things down. identifying how the system affects us all is key to dismantling it as a whole!
“Ex” terf crypto dude: If you have truly changed as a person, then you should know that nobody owes you forgiveness. Nobody owes you a second chance. You absolutely should be held accountable for your past actions instead of hiding from them. That’s part of what people mean by “doing the work”. It’s not easy and it’s not meant to make you feel good. You complained an awful lot about not wanting to be held accountable for your actions just because your new friends weren’t directly affected. That doesn’t show growth or change. You need to be willing to take full accountability. Accountability doesn’t have an expiration date.
In regards to the trans masc hating on trans women post: I think you did the best you could in a tricky situation. Be kind to yourself. You’re a good person.
i have no idea what your response to this would be but i’ve been grappling with both guilt and selfishness recently and i really need to talk about it anonymously. you seem like a reasonable person who would at least listen before shutting me out as an irredeemable bigot (which i was at least the latter of those two words in the past). i think i’d just like some advice.
i used to be a crypto-TERF even though i didn’t directly interact with any transgender people on those accounts and i’m ashamed of it. this was from around the end of 2022 to mid-2023, although towards the end of that period i was in sort of an in-between state where i had a foot in each side and interacted with both radfem & trans communities separately (different accounts, etc.)
only a select few people know about it currently, and most of them believe me that i’ve deactivated those accounts (one twitter, one tumblr) and stayed gone since then, i.e. chosen to be a trans activist at the end of the day and keep my transmasc identity in full. i don’t blame the ex-friend who absolutely despises me and refuses to forgive or otherwise accept the apology at all! in fact it doesn’t really bother me that much since we weren’t close in the first place but even if it did i’d still understand. i just worry that instead of moving on and simply avoiding me at all costs, they’ll make a move to ruin what little presence and few friends on the internet i have if i appear more openly online. i don’t use any twitter accounts that aren’t private for a variety of (+ unrelated) reasons, but if i ever changed my mind then i don’t think i could last very long in mainstream twitter circles without them posting a callout for something that’s long done. i get that people deserve to know, but if i’m long past that phase and no longer hurting anyone by exploring gender criticism then i don’t understand why i should be treated as irredeemable forever and never get another chance from OTHER people and NEW friends who weren’t actively affected. starting over on a blank slate without lying or changing my identity online, which i seriously don’t want to do since i would feel uncomfortable pretending to be someone i’m not even if it wasn’t wrong.
i guess especially my concern would be that i’m not welcome in trans spaces at all anymore. i really want to start testosterone and change my name legally before the election later this year, and i want to celebrate that joy with other transgender people. i would worry my identity doesn’t matter if i’m a (perceived) threat regardless. like i don’t know, maybe it’s my BPD talking under the notion that nuance cannot exist but am i deserving of being alone without community forever, as if i’m exiled?
i’m not looking to be coddled (though please don’t be too harsh or dismissive either) and of course you’re free to criticize me further if you deem it warranted. i just genuinely don’t know where to go from here so that’s what i’m asking. i believe i have improved since cutting myself off from all TERF spaces, since i don’t need anyone’s approval to redeem myself and do better, especially given it’s been more than a year now, but maybe it’s not enough or there’s something i’m not getting about the obligations or lack thereof regarding how accounting for past actions, growing as a person, and the effects on other people are supposed to work. it’s not your responsibility to answer this or help me out and i know that, so it would be greatly appreciated but you can also shut this down or delete it and i’ll be fine. i wish you well.
I think it might be helpful if you look at people like ky schevers who previously partook in similar things and managed to come out the other side to try to make up for their past actions. I don't think it's right to mislead people about your actions, but I don't think people are going to immediately cut you off like you think they are. it all depends on how genuinely you see the wrong in your past actions and whether or not you've truly changed as a person, and that does mean that some people will not want to be around you, but again I think people who have gone the route of exposing the ways TERFs work and function are greatly appreciated in the community. but you still really should tell people. it's not fair to the people you're around, and you'll need to be prepared for whatever decisions they make (which may include cutting you off) but in general I don't think people are as likely to be as harsh as you think they'd be. just don't try to downplay your actions & make it clear that you've learned from your mistakes and regret them. I think that's all any of us would really ask for.
ironically, ex-TERFs tend to be some of the more helpful members of the community re: Elisa Rae Shupe exposing thousands of emails and internal communications, Ky Schevers giving valuable information on the inner workings of TERF circles, etc. but part of their work is also making up for the harms they've caused by giving back to the community they hurt.
I wish I had better advice to give tbh. in many ways, it's a cult. and the people who get sucked into cults are people searching for community and a sense of belonging, often very vulnerable people, and I am not a punishment-oriented person so I don't exactly believe that people deserve to be forever cut off from community for their wrongdoings, but I also know that there are reasons people feel that way.
this isn't really a question but i just wanted to communicate this somehow. currently my account is private because i was getting stalked and harassed by some transphobic separatist transfem lol. she may or may not have ended up somewhere in your engagements recently, she's part of the weird self-hating crowd on here. regardless, i really appreciate seeing you actually vocalize the issues I've seen in the community for several years now. I've been out as transmasc to myself and online for almost 10 years now but im in no position to actually start transition like i want to. so i present fem and it feels further alienating somehow, like im wearing a "woman mask" in society. nobody has ever really publicly talked about this oppression transmascs face constantly, a unique way transphobia and misogyny intersect for us that isn't quite transmisogyny because that's directed more towards transfems. its depressing that no community could ever take me quite seriously because i didn't seem to "fit" anywhere. but it helps now to see more and more people actually talk about transmasc issues and how anti-transmasculinity does exist, no matter what you label it as. i appreciate you and your words a whole lot. thank you :)
thank you! as somebody who has known that experience way too well, I feel ya. I always felt like it was a form of drag. it helped for me to dress really over the top with lots of makeup to make it feel like oh, strangers are she/her-ing me because I'm in a costume, not because they're reacting to ME. it's just like cosplay or drag.
sending lots of love ❤️
@ separatist anon: Anti-transmasculine transfems/women could say the same. You're teetering into the same ideological rabbit hole that those who contribute to the isolation you're feeling have already fallen into. People in our community (other trans men and transmascs) can do harm to our trans sisters and siblings, we can engage in transmisogyny just as others can anti-transmasculinity. There's no inherent solidarity in any of us, we ALL have to work to kill the internalized transphobia in our brain one by one.
Unfortunately, people are fragile and often turn to black-and-white thinking when a member of a certain group does bad by you. It's a vicious cycle that results in the community eating itself alive like a cheap dollar store version of Ouroboros.
There's always been a particular pattern in queer-online discourse to never acknowledge the good done by our community until it feels tangible enough to rise above our struggles, hence our intercommunity love never gets nearly enough attention as does aimless discourse, but we are loved. You need to pull out of that hole you've found yourself in before you recreate the gnawing anguish and seclusion you feel directed at other people.
Even what you're saying now is mirrored by people who feel the exact same way you do, but do so directed towards our group. Humans are funny like that. Even in discourse it's clear either sides share the same fight, anxieties are sometimes reflected. So I think one day our community will be better, it has to be, but to do so we all have to break down the unconscious dehumanization of the "other," to see those we're in a community with as more than just people whose our identities intersect within a group label. You have to do that too.
I was similarly spiraling in my early transition due to similar experiences of seeing people in my community express blanket distaste for FTM transition, the only other trans person I knew at the time attempting to talk me down out of HRT, so I understand first-hand the stages of grief. I implore you to seek out local trans and queer areas in your town, because finding people that understood me was the first step to dissecting this type of thought pattern. I met a lot of shitty trans people, those that certainly left a mental mark behind, but your idea of a non-transfem community will not save from that.
This is a barely coherent stream of consciousness written while hazy from pain killers (broken leg, ouchie), but I hope something there got through to anyone reading.
Our community is not perfect, but it's just as yours as it is mine. Isn't that worth how beautiful it can be? The future is worth aiding in.
"we ALL have to work to kill the internalized transphobia in our brain one by one" yes yes yes 1000x yes. exactly.
Pretty sure that guy hating on all transfems as unhelpful and bigoted is a troll looking for callout fodder. Either you agree and you’re a transmisogynist or you disagree and they’ll use it as proof that you think trans women should be subservient to transmascs (though I haven’t seen any yet, I’m sure they’ll ss your thread to twist everyone’s words). IMO you shouldn’t post those bc you know TIRFs will take any excuse they get to make transmascs look bad, even when we’re throwing our full love and support at them.
I definitely considered that but imo if they demonize me, so be it, they'd demonize me for ignoring it as well. if I could maybe help prevent somebody from falling down a TERF pipeline in the case that it is real, then that's worth it for me. like I had a feeling it would probably get me yelled at to respond firmly yet kindly (bc the internet has zero concept of crisis intervention bc when somebody genuinely comes to you with thoughts about wanting to hurt others but still seems lucid enough to know that that's wrong? you don't just start fucking screaming at them. that helps no one. and it would seem that that's what people think is the "moral" thing to do in that situation but sorry not sorry I disagree).
ultimately, I value preventing somebody's descent into TERFism over internet reputation points and realistically I think it actually shows just how accepting of trans fems the community I've cultivated is because there have been SO many positive posts. like my first thought when I get an ask like that is "where the fuck have I gone wrong that somebody feels this way based on things I've said" and I will continue to strive to make sure that kind of transmisogyny isn't welcome in this community. but I also recognize TERF recruitment tactics and a lot of cryptoTERFs have caught on to the intracommunity issues and are exploiting them to try to convert people over. it's disturbing. but I think highlighting it is in part a reminder of the work we all need to be doing to keep transmisogyny out of our communities and prevent people from getting sucked into pipelines like with TERFs.
I was wondering what you thought the reason as to why a lot of tranfem/trans women are becoming more hostile towards transmasc/trans men?
I've certainly seen more of this hate recently, also I've noticed that it's predominantly done by white trans women.
There's so much to what these transfems/trans women are saying that's so deeply problematic and echos the same crap that terfs say, it's just so confusing and deeply upsetting.
it's a very vocal, very abusive minority of trans ppl as a whole but I think it's a combo of a lot of things. namely that there are more out trans people now than there ever was, at a political time where they feel particularly scared and vulnerable... so more people to recruit into hate movements like TIRFism.
unfortunately, when people feel scared, they tend to start fighting against whatever scapegoat they can find instead of the real issues bc it feels like an easier enemy to "win" against. hence why we tend to be the punching bag to take out the frustrations of the ills cys men have caused them, instead of actually going after cys men (and, if anything, viewing cys men quite favorably bc every cys man is a potential egg).
I think there's also an aspect of it where they're riding off of public perception of pop culture understandings of feminism (which are white and cys centered at their core) and it gives them a way to feel in tune with feminism to just swap genders instead of creating a more truly trans inclusive feminism. it also affords them much less criticism from cis women if they just swap sex for gender and otherwise barely touch feminist theory, bc then the cis women don't feel threatened (even if it means nonbinary people and trans mascs and GNC trans fems are left behind). we are all viewed as acceptable collateral.
something mentioned by the Jennifer Coates article, too, is this concept of in-group appeasement via "man-hating", particularly with it feeling gender affirming to fit in with cis women's bashing of people, even if the person being talked about is a trans person. there's this illusion that I think a lot of people like to partake in that, if you're good enough, the cis women will accept you. if you do enough performative stuff, they won't just abandon you when it inconveniences them. and while it's disturbing people would rather sell their morals to cis people for their approval at the expense of other trans people, it's not really surprising? it's a kind of bootlicking that makes a lot of sense for people who feel they have no other community and who are frequently peer pressured into abandoning and hurting their trans masc peers by cis people. I just wish people recognized it for the leopards eating faces party that it was.
I guess my last point is that honestly a lot of it is unprocessed misogyny that feels dysphoric and Bad to even acknowledge, often fueled by a shit ton of internalized transphobia (in my observation). like there's a type of bizarre punitive faux-justice some of these people do when it comes to trans mascs where they almost project their hatred of themselves onto us. but other times it just appears like it's garden variety misogyny treating us like little girls with no brains who can't possibly understand feminism themselves, deserve ridicule for everything we do, etc. and I have a whole thread on how you can both view yourself as a woman and still see trans mascs as women in a misogynistic way as well, those things aren't mutually exclusive, even though they are extremely hypocritical (but how often is bigotry rational?).
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