Somewhere along the galaxy 𓂃𓈒⊹˚⭒
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Unidentified Light · 1y
I miss you today, too.
I miss you, and it's still a terrible one. Don't you think it is strange that you can still miss someone who is currently in your arms? I do too. I guess the problem with me is that I will never stop missing you, sayang.
... what if I cry? T __ T
I miss you too, kakak. It's no strange at all because I know exactly how you feel. Jangan bilang "Adek ngikutin." lagi, loh. Awas aja??? 😠 I’d be a millionaire if missing you was a job, kakak sayang.
Now playing, Closer - RM (with Paul Blanco, Mahalia)
“If I could be under your skin / Closer than we've ever been. ♪”
Unidentified Light · 1y
I miss you too, and it is a terrible one. This week has been so dull that I can’t even bring myself to acknowledge my own feelings— You can decide it for me, my feelings, everything. It’s as if I’m drawn to the idea of being the perfect fit for your ideal type of person. Just like how I wish I could cease those stressful days for you, and replace them with a week full of laughter where you will find me staring at you while you finish another WIP, or sitting in the kitchen corner, admiring your delicate crafting of another ‘bola susu’ that you like. At that time, too, i’d be gazing at you, simply because I prefer to savor sweetness with my eyes more than with anything. Don’t you think perhaps, there is some truth to the old saying ‘you are what you eat’? Because you truly embody that.
So, you are also somebody who lives more in your head than in your home? I’m really sorry I led you into thinking that would be the case of my absence. I was busy making the most of you, spinning out of control with you— just like the song you sent me. The words I hadn’t sent you terrified me too. And the fact I couldn’t look away that I have seen you scared me a little. You see, I’m insane even to myself. Never did I thought I’d be so head over heels for someone —despite of only being a silent watcher like this— after a very long time. Now that I let you know what I feel and what I want, do you think I stand a chance to lose my interest in you, Bintang?
You don’t have to worry about being the selfish one here; i’m also thinking of showing up in near time, which, in itself, is a selfish move. It means making you deal with someone you know very little about: me. I hope you can tolerate this selfishness and decide what time you want me to show up. Everything you decide will be a perfect moment for me and I’ll be there.
And also, don’t worry about your reply being too long. I have all the time in the world to read them like this. Hope it does apply to you too.
Instead of deciding for you, I want to pick a star and hand it to you. As it twinkles before your eyes, you can make a wish and I'll make one for you, too. I wish it will grant you a world that's joyful and maybe a little bit kinder. The moon that surrounded by warmth, love and the stars; sounds to be the most fitting idea of you that I could think of.
And how do I make them come true? To be watched by sincere eyes, my heart is fluttering by just imagining it.. Even if I have to redo all of them; to start another drawing, to make more 'bola susu', but this time with your gaze fixed on me? I wouldn't mind going through all of those activities again. Well, perhaps that old saying are still being mentioned by people every now and then for a reason ... for its accuracy, maybe? :p Ah, I'm going crazy really. How can someone be so sweet and good to me? Did I save a whole nation on my previous life? What did I ever do to deserve you, dear moon?
Mm, yes, I could say that I'm a bit of an overthinker too. But that's not entirely your fault, it just can't be helped sometimes; to have those thoughts. At least you're here now, and I couldn't ask for more.
... which is not entirely true, beacuse I really want more. Let's get insane together, then? I don't even know your name, yet I have this guts to trust you. I mean, trust is a strong word, can also be dangerous sometimes. But I (( want )) to trust you, to see you, to learn about you.
So, if you haven't go to dreamland yet, would you mind to appear on my DM when it hits zero o'clock? In WIB, incase you're not sure. Only if you're ready of course.. it's okay if you still need more time, we can take it slow. I'm fine with anything.
Needless to say, I will always spare my time to read your messages too, no matter how short or long. I'll be waiting for you, moon! ☾ ๋࣭ ⭑
Unidentified Light · 1y
How are you, Bintang? Before you ask, i’m doing badly or well, whichever you prefer.
It seems like somebody just discovered the fact that reverse psychology often works like a charm, am I right? Hahaha. No pressure at all. In fact, I’ve been waiting for this too because, mind you, it might have seemed like just five days of my absence, but for me it was an ironic ‘stargazing’ experience from afar. Ironic, because I would have had the chance to do that in closer range if I had been earlier than your friend. Not going to cover it up; I was disappointed. But don’t worry; you’re not losing your loyal audience. It’s just that apparently, my written kisses don’t reach their destination after knowing the fact that I had to wait for another perfect moment to show up. And apparently, they are consumed on the way by the ghosts of the fear of your rejection. Well, I could be off the mark on the impression I gathered from your reply. Just like how it turned out wrong when I thought you wouldn’t wait for my reply but you did.
Yes, I could be all wrong, but the best thing about me is that i’m always willing to learn. So with that in mind, would you mind sharing things that have intrigued you recently? Whatever that is, just write them all. Too much information is never too much for me when it comes to you. Also, allow me to suggest you my favorite song which I listened to when write this for you. You might as well use it as your dearest companion in writing a reply back to me. https://spotify.link/MosIXOOKTDb
Somewhere in the constellation, the Moon.Hi, sender! I missed you. Uh, why would you want me to choose for you? I really want to know whether you're doing good or not, though. I hope it's the first one. You should take care of yourself and prioritize your own happiness, okay? For me, I'm doing fine although these past few days I've been stressed a little bit because of college stuffs, nothing too serious though.
You know, I really thought it wouldn't work. I was already hopeless that you're gonna reply anymore, I even thought maybe I was too boring that you've lost interest. T __ T But thankfully that's not the case.. well, I hope so. I'm happy you're here again, I literally couldn't stop smiling.
Would it be selfish of me if I really want you to show up in my DM, sender? It's not like I want to rush you or anything, I know you're trying to find the right timing. I just.. can't help but feel the need to talk to you in person asap. I want to know who's this person that ever so sincere to pour out the contents of their heart for me, delivered in messages with full tenderness and always so heartwarming.
You don't have to worry about not being able to meet my expectations, I really couldn't care less. I just want to see you.
Things I'm intrigued by these days.. does eating sweets count? I'm so into chocolate, cookies, candies, ice cream, mochi, mille crêpes, etc. I even tried to make a milk candy called 'bola susu' by myself (with the help of TikTok's recipe). And I'm nowhere near a good bake, so I can't say they're the best. ;; But still edible, trust me!! How about you? Do you like sweets too?
Also, yes, I'm listening to the song as I write this. It's my first time listening to it and it's so good.. I'm not saying this just to be nice, the song really suits my taste! I've been really into chill and calming songs. Perhaps that what helps me calm down from the daily hustle bustle. So let me give you a recommendation too, in hope that you're gonna like it as much as I do. https://spotify.link/yEEAKm3kUDb
Looking forward to your reply!
Lev. · 13 answers · 1y
What's the latest movie/series you watched?
Unidentified Light · 1y
Hello again, Bintang. I'm sorry I didn't immediately share how your reply had me over the moon, with feet kicking, giggles, and an ear to ear smile. I could say that I'm just a bit of an overthinker, often wondering if one different action, a few different words, or a tad less of this and a bit more of that could have changed things. I hope you don't get the impression that this and the previous message I sent you were penned by some dull, late-night writer—they’re not. It's just me, waiting for the perfect moment to show up so I could make my very best first impression for you.
And speaking of the said perfect moment, does the jikook matching layout offer still stand?
Hi, sender! It's fine, I promise. If only you know that's pretty much my reactions too when I read your previous (unexpected) message. That makes two of us, then. 😋
Rest assured, I would never thought of the writer behind these sweet messages as a boring person, you're anything but. Instead, it makes me wonder do I really deserve such an attentive gesture from someone that barely even knows about me? Really, sender, your messages seem to brighten up my day a little, if not a lot. Thank you!
Ah.. that.. I already have a friend to do it with me.. But!!! We can definitely use another matching layout next time, yeah? I hope I didn't make you feel disappointed. T __ T
Unidentified Light · 1y
Your name was the very first thing that caught my attention just 5 hours ago before this message found you. Initially, I thought I’d stop at that, but the next thing I knew, my curiosity got the best of me. Questions like ‘what else do we have in common besides our love for BTS’s Japanese songs?’ or simply the desire to see more of your drawings began flooding my mind. I’ve never been so drawn to get to know someone recently, and I swear, it feels really nice.
Well, actually, there is another question worth asking that has lingered the most in my thoughts. It’s the question of whether or not you’re already someone’s 'stargazing' experience at the moment. And if there is a chance for me, would you mind if I bother you once in a while here, Bintang?
Oh my... Hi, there... I really didn't expect to get a long, sweet message on my retrospring like this... ;; This is the cutest thing I've read all day– no, all week, really. You're so adorable, sender, do you know that? Thank you for taking an interest in me, it feels just as nice to know that someone is curious about me. 😶🌫️ Also, I'd be happy if we could get to know about each other!
As for your other question, I can say that currently there's no one who makes me their 'stargazing' experience.. (the way you worded it is so beautiful!) At this point, I think you must already know that I wouldn't mind at all if you want to come by and bother me. I'm anticipating it, even. 😋 Please don't hesitate to show up and shoot me a direct message, sender!
Lev. · 10 answers · 1y
How do you deal with loneliness when it creeps in?