psd by vendetta. ╱ minor (16—17.) ╱ poc. ╱ prof. dx for adhd, gad, mdd, ptsd & suspected osdd. ╱ prof. suspected for bpd, ocd & autism. ╱ survivor of many types of abuse.
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keido · 7mo
remember i'm not a professional!
i can only lead you to the right path. this retrospring is for genuine questions, no matter how obvious they seem. because education should be the first priority. please, feel free to ask me anything when it comes to dissociative disorders & trauma, or how they're related to something in my bio.
people from ponytown or my rentry: while worded aggressively, this is for you too.
someone special · 2mo
hi hi!!! ive a question. So, obviously headspace cannot be entered and all that, but there are a few things i want to ask. I knew someone who was diagnosed with DID, so they've told me a lot. Firstly, they told me that headspace is not real. It can be "created", like your therapist would say so in order to improve communication(?) (As it has been a while since they have told me, my memory is foggy on these sort of things), but these people saying they can enter headspace are full of ####. Their "headspace" is like a bunch of floating fragments in endless void. A question I have is, for the people who have headspaces as a result of talking to a therapist, what is it actually like? Is it just a place you can visualize in your head?
Headspace... CAN be entered. And you do not need therapy to create one. a Headspace if made for YOU to cope with trauma, it is a form of direct escapism. People may not remember entering a headspace, but that is amnesia. Your alters "go somewhere" when they aren't around, and they can have communication with eachother in a headspace. It is varied, and there isn't a single answer.
My therapist didn't make my headspace, but nor did I. It was created as long as my disorder had been in me, and I cannot enter it myself. Headspaces are crucial, but not needed for a system. This is where medical terms like "NPC" comes from, having a headspace.
I do not know where you got headspaces cannot e entered, or that headspaces aren't real, but it is wrong. It is a recorded part of DID diagnoses, and I further you to research about it.
someone special · 2mo
(same person, again.) I'm not cis, I'm genderfluid and I js wanna make sure it's okay for me to have a qpr with this guy
someone special · 2mo
Heya! I might(?) be sapphic, still questioning tho. Would it be fine to have a qpr with a cis guy????
someone special · 2mo
Hi, I checked out your rentry because Im going through a "pickle" right now. I keep noticing though that there is someone else in my head and seems like they are trying to form out if that makes sense. I don't know what to think about it because I have not been diagnosed with anything. I only assumed it was just me in here but it doesn't seem that way and I'm confused and scared.
I'm sorry you're going through something so tough. Discovering any form of dissociation can be scary and confusing, and I would suggest going through more official sources, and perhaps writing in a diary and keeping track of what's happening to you. Try to be open minded, and I would suggest looking back on your life and seeing if signs of dissociative disorders existed prior to this pickle.
someone special · 2mo
I know this probably isn't the place to ask but I don't really know where else to go and it's more than okay if you dont have an answer (/gen) and sorry if the wording is bad/messy in advance, I'm the host of a system, been professionally diagnosed with it for two years. But I've kept it hidden from my friends. I've told people in the past and have lost people I thought I could trust and I'm batshit terrified of going thought the cycle again, but I also feel so shitty for lying to them. I know I should've been honest from the start but I was just terrified of the reaction I'd get. Is there any advice you could give on how to go about, at least, starting a conversation like this? Thank you so much
You genuinely owe no one anything. DID and OSDD, as a disorder, is made to be hidden. It is an undercover worker and your system is your buisness. Though if you trust someone enough TO tell them, it is important you educate them and give them resources as you do such. Dissociation disorders are terribly stigmatized, and it will be hard to come out with such. Try starting a conversation about the disorder without saying you have it. "Have you heard of DID?" "Have you seen (bad movie about split personalities)? I hate how it potrays that disorder..." Ect.
someone special · 3mo
hello! just thought it would be helpful to note ive found an alternative to retrospring due to it closing next year. the name of the site is https://sparkler.cc ! i hope this comes in handy :3 ( the site also has some additional features that r nice but its very similar to retrospring )
someone special · 4mo
hi! came here from your ramble and it was PERSONALL but as a system it was completely understandable and so real of you. Currently with the spread of infomation about osdd/did people will either take it as knowledge or knowledge to fake it. It really is a shame, but usually when people take info of osdd/did and run with it to fake, they are easily distinguishable, but theres a lot of persistent argument now on the debate of "not all systems are the same", therefore harder and almost impossible to draw a concrete boundary between what is a real or a fake system. That is unless research and a study is done, which can conclude the average but we still cannot take this average as a "requirement" for systems either way. what is your thoughts on this? how could we provide a clearer boundary on how to potentially suspect and more easily recognize systems that arent actually systems -- singlets that are only fascinated with the concept of osdd/did and want to have it themselves?
Well, like you said, with the lack of proper research; we'll almost never know. There can be a lot of signs I've personally made for myself that are pretty "chronically online" in reason, but usually I take peoples word and see the signs when I get to know them. The "most recent" fake system I encountered had a system that seemed like it was consisted of fragments, one note alters with very simple pronouns (mostly neos of things that relate to them) and likes (of things that relate to them) that were not distingushiable between members. These three things alone or together aren't a red flag, becaue OSDD 1A systems would struggle with such. But, they told me they "didn't know their system type," and didn't seem well versed in their own self-diganosis. They tried to make all their alters unique, while also not at the same time. It was inconsistent and obvious. A few others I've met spread "endogenic" rhetoric or psychologically impossible ideas ("system-hopping," and "creating your own alters") that proved them to me. Some people have systems but spread misinformation, and they get blended with the crowd. Just trust your instinct, but don't go around looking for petty signs to "fakeclaim" someone, either.
someone special · 4mo
osdd occurs from trauma if im not wrong. if people are upset at your aggressive tone in your rentry, i don't understand why. im schizophrenic and if i saw people pretending to share the same pain that i did, i would be angry too. also, i have heard that osdd is a disorder that you will be unconscious of, which means you wouldn't know that you were a system unless something caused you to realize it. is this true?
Yes, OSDD and DID are hidden disorders, they act as a defensive mechanism for your brain and trauma so you can live life and function normally without the burden of your experience. I found out about my system during a very heavy breakdown and a very serious mental health crisis, in which I finally heard an alter speak to me. It can be different for many people, some may get diagnosed and find out that way. Thank you for sharing my strong views as well!
someone special · 6mo
letting u know ur therapist isnt doing a good job considering what a shitty person u are!
someone special · 7mo
Hi! I'm asking for a friend and myself, can a Transneutral, genderfluid, Omnisapphic person say the t slur? I don't know honestly and we both really need answers
someone special · 7mo
Can osdd1a still have alters? I've looked at your rentry and I dont quite understand and I wanna for my partner
OSDD 1A still do have alters, the alters are just different versions of the "host". Think of it like character interpretations, they're all the same character, with different changes in order to "fit the story". OSDD 1A alters are the same person at their base, with changes in their personality or demeenor to fit their role.
someone special · 7mo
Just wanted to say i appreciate your rentry a lot. I feel like you're helping a lot of people as well as myself understand this topic better.