mana asked do you ever get excited to work on a person…

mm, I actually don't tend to think that. Though what happens is that more simply my motivation drains down hard after getting started with it and getting stuck on the first roadblock.

cheri · 8mo

I keep trying! ;w ;

Speaking more seriously, it's easy for me to fall into ruts like that and as difficult on the other end to climb my way out. A childhood completely detrimental to proper emotional development and self-esteem will do that to a girl!

But that's the thing about a personal project. It's personal! I'm doing it for myself first and foremost, and I'm happy with the work I do because it's for me. It is me. And I personally don't feel like 'unimportant' is the essence of my life.

What I have to say, I'll scream out loud someday. It starts with me smiling as I whisper it to myself.

Serina · 9mo

no, i don't care if others don't care

Jacky · 9mo

Absolutely. When I had a job, I could only do a little per day. And that was bad.

dd🌺 · 9mo

Of course, you know me, if you tell me about the project I will admire you for it and hopefully will say enough nice things about it that you'll want to keep going :P

I usually only start a new project when I figure out how it is going to bring something of value to me, something that is not dependent at all on anyone's validation. That can be as simple as just it being fun. For example, I wrote about some internals of Microsoft Works because it interested me, because using that knowledge to break it in new and strange ways is funny, and because I want to document things about old software. It doesn't matter if nobody cares. I bought a camera, and have a Tumblr for my photos, not because I wanted to be famous or validated, but because I wanted to force myself to go outside and pay attention to my surroundings.

I definitely do have the depresso occasionally and it definitely brings me down, but at worst it will only make me pause some projects, not stop or destroy them, because I can tell myself that the potential value is there and that I just am not seeing it at the moment. I usually just switch to another project which isn't making me feel bad, and then if I switch projects enough like this I'll eventually circle back to that one!

~lucidiot · 9mo

You really want to do it. Nothing can stop you. If you still have problems then it's not your time..... Better prepare yourself then do it.

Kabus · 9mo

i get that all the time, and unfortunately i don't know how to cope either, because usually, i do give up. i need to live in that excitement as long as i'm working or else it becomes actively painful to work. Maybe just take breaks, and/or keep going back through what you've done so far.

mana · 7 answers · 9mo