Maybe some stubborn part of me just wants to reject the offer of either one. If I deserve it or want it, I'll have to put in the effort for it. Even though I say that, I've been critically low on energy before to feel like I can't do much more than get up out of bed for the day and do what's out of habit. But I have a way for energy now, now it's just pushing for the improvements and in what direction. Never give up, we may fall but never give up. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself in my head.

I think both are possible, the emotional mechanics one is just difficult to pinpoint and grow to be able to read that well. The happiness all the time one would be difficult to truly feel that way, all the time. Doesn't mean other emotions can't be underlying. Happiness being the dominant emotion with others mixed in. I do think the emotional mechanics one would be interesting though

I'm struggling with this answer. Knowing other people's emotional mechanics would be helpful if you have some kind of interest in them. Whatever it is. And I'm not Gonna lie, I would have paid to have that skill and understand many people and their behaviors tbh. On the other hand, I can see the cost of that skill in a person like me...

Feeling good all the time sounds unnatural to me. It's like suppressing the rest of emotions. Could it be empathy possible? Would it exist? How could it be possible to see others people' griefs and still feeling good? I'm not sure if I want that part of me being taken away even when sometimes it feels more like a curse than anything.