No. When I'm in room full of people I'm never thinking about how smart we are(n't). All I'm ever really thinking about is Miss Prissy from Foghorn Leghorn cartoons going, "OHHH, UUUUUUUUH MAAAAAN?!!!" every time she sees a man because for some reason she's horny as hell and you know what, she's a sexual being and I'm not going to shame her for that, but you know what else? Boundaries are being crossed and she needs to actually maybe get her shit together. And also? Is there really no one who wants to dick her down? Like what is this world where no man is interested in her just because she's annoying as all holy hell and isn't some Big Booty Judy?? Some bitch would be all over her whole vibe, and that's just a fact. There's someone, multiple someones, who'd love to bang it out with Miss Prissy so what gives? I don't know how to feel about it.

When I was younger I was the smartest person in most rooms, but for a long time I never realized it. It wasn't until I realized how dumb most people are and I took a few IQ tests and looked at percentiles that I realized I was probably the smartest person in a given room, but I'm not sure I actually felt that way. On the other hand, I remember some years thinking I was smarter than everyone (I just hadn't met the right people yet), so I dunno.

I think I might actually have or used to have a unique combination of mental faculties that makes/made me at least as quick and astute as the most astute people on the planet (such as unusual brightness, unusual imaginativeness, a tendency to see things from all possible angles, a strong intuition, a pure episteme (e.g. I'm open-minded and can be fiercely logical without being rationalistic), knowing when I have enough information to be sure about something and when I don't, vs. just assuming for psychological reasons like most people do, good emotional and analytical integration, deep and rich emotional/spiritual resources, etc.). I say "used to have" because I don't think I'm that smart anymore; my intelligence has dwindled over the years, probably as an indirect result of my severe emotional issues. Also, "smart" can be used to mean intelligent or knowledgeable.. I've never been much of the latter. Worldly facts are boring af.